I never give up…

Hello peeps, if there’s anybody still around… or if anybody stops by and realizes that there was a long, long time since I last posted and that my last few posts were all about my struggle to find out the reasons why I didn’t seem to be able to lose weight… Just in case anybody wondered what happened to the lady who was looking for the thin-lady-inside of her… I am still here… I just want you to know that no matter what… no matter the struggles… I just DON’T GIVE UP! That’s right! … And while my weight kept slowly (and sometimes not so slowly) but surely creeping up… I never quit my battle against obesity… and while I did reach the 200’s again I didn’t gain all my weight back….

My last resort has been to invest in an expensive gym membership (which included 5 sessions with a fitness trainer and some blood work)

The blood work said what I already knew… Everything looks amazing in paper! They can tell I eat healthy and I exercise because the glucose is spot on, ideal numbers for triglycerides, HDL cholesterol, LDL cholesterol, blood pressure EVERYTHING! … They did a cardio test and they also were able to prove that I wasn’t lying when I said I exercise every day! They got me on the elliptical and it did nothing! High resistance and incline and I was feeling like I was sitting on a couch! My hear rate was so stable and not spiking… I could talk through the whole test… it was… GREAT! The trainer said: Wow, you really are strong… and I even told him when everything was done: “Sorry, I just have to ask… am I the healthiest fat person you’ve ever helped?” I could tell he was afraid to answer … Poor guy! but he finally said: “I am going to have to say yes to that!” LOL… So he started explaining to me that my body had just simply adapted to EVERYTHING I DO… Yes… everything! Including the 10 mile walks, the eating healthy, everything! And when the discouragement came and I did eat out of my normal, healthy stuff… of course I saw even an increase… and that was doing it! So what am I doing now?

  1. Weight Lifting… I had never tried that and the trainer highly recommended it (plus I’ve always had the goal of looking somewhat like a bodybuilder… I know… it might seem crazy… but I really reach for that!)
  2. Switching things around more both with the food and the exercise… in regards to food I am sticking to strictly healthy stuff, avoiding grains but not excluding them, continuing to live a “sugar free lifestyle”, and sticking to what I already used to do of no artificial junk and stuff like that… BUT now I am just making sure that I am not always “eating the same” everyday… adding more fish to my diet and like my trainer said: “When things stop working, change things up a bit”
  3. I am not focusing on the scale…. After 2 weeks of all the training and sticking to my healthy food… I felt stronger yet the scale said I had lost only 2 pounds (what!? I am still walking 10 miles, plus 1 hour of cardio and 1 hour of weights! How can that be?) well… looking deeper into it… and with the right equipment… ALL THE OTHER NUMBERS told a more encouraging story… I had lost 7.5 pounds of fat during those 2 weeks… yet gained 4.5 pounds of lean mass… AMAZING! Had I not known those details I know I would’ve let the 2 pounds be very discouraging! All that work for NOTHING??? BUT …. Now I know I have to REALLY trust other things more than the number on the scale… How do I feel? Am I getting stronger? How do the clothes feel? Etc… and I can’t let the scale ruin all those other tangible victories!
  4. Resting… With this I am still struggling… I have to trust what the trainer said about letting my body rest… I get this weird anxiety if I relax… I feel like I can’t sit or not train for a day because I will get huge… like… on that day! and this takes me to the next point…
  5. Training my mind as well… I am learning a lot about neuroplasticity… which is basically how our thinking affects our brains and our bodies… it might sound like it’s not something serious but being healthy involves our minds too… I have to change the way I think about myself… and even quit the negative thoughts that tell me “I’ll never get to accomplish something” and learn to relax, enjoy and not obsess.

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So … there you see me in the blurry picture above… I have those bands in my legs, I walk sideways with those and it is a great strength exercise for my legs (hips and thighs I think) … I am having a lot of fun and loving seeing results in my body… Hopefully my experience encourages you! I never quit… I just don’t… Find what works for you! I hope I can give you a great update soon!

The Thin Lady Inside

Day 17

Hello everybody!  Today is day 17 of the 28 days of the Fast Metabolism Diet… as I have already mentioned, this diet is supposed to heal your metabolism in 28 days but, every metabolism is different and some have more weight to lose than others so if you haven’t lost all the weight you need to lose in these 28 days you just repeat the whole thing all over again (and as many times as necessary), after that period of time then you can choose to incorporate some ingredients that are not allowed during this process or you can choose that you enjoyed the “feeling of good health” so much that you just “leave them out” … now… if you choose to incorporate some ingredients (like I will, in the case of dairy) the recommendation is to choose the organic kind and to avoid “overdoing” it… so… I will follow those recommendations for sure!

So… my first week on this diet I lost 2 pounds… YAY! … I was all impatient so I weighed myself again before week 2 ended… and I lost 2 more pounds (YAY!!!) so… 4 pounds lost, right? Awesomeness… Then… by the end of week 2 I weighed myself again and it turns out I gained 1.3 pounds so I thought “huh” but didn’t think more of it because I know it’s not that much to even think it’s real weight, it might just be liquid or whatever, right? well… I am midway week 3 and I actually saw the measuring tape move a little bit but not to the right side so I weighed myself and I gained 1.5 more pounds… interesting… So you could say that I have only lost 1.2 pounds total -sigh-… and that’s if the scale doesn’t keep going up…

Anyway… I know I should throw the stupid scale away especially if it is going to affect me… I still trust this method so I am choosing not to care too much about it… some other people in the group have reported weight gain on week 2 as well so I guess I’m not the only one… I am still hopeful about all of this but maybe the fact that I am on P2 (Phase 2) doesn’t help (phase 2 are Wednesdays and Thursdays where the diet gets really hard! but Friday, Saturday and Sunday are amazing so I keep telling myself that it’s just TWO DAYS! JUST TWO DAYS!)

So… I just wanted to give you all an update on how I am doing… I have been doing this to the “T” so I hope it will eventually pay off!

The Thin Lady Inside

I am a sore loser!

Hello everyone! Here I am … first let me wish you all a “Happy Valentine’s Day” … I am still thinking about healthy treats I can make for hubby so we can enjoy them together… I ordered my 100%birch (USA made) Xylitol yesterday on amazon… (xylitol is a natural sweetener that is plan approved and does not affect your glycemic index, there are two kinds… corn based which is GMO and birch which is good and the one that we will be using) so… anyway… I ordered it and I will be getting it in about 5-8 days… so… obviously I can’t use it to bake… Stevia has too much of a weird (and very bitter) aftertaste for me especially when baking so … I can’t think of anything else to make! We’ll see.

So… yes… I am a sore loser… it turns out that yesterday I got back on my rowing machine… it had been abandoned for a long time and yesterday started back at it… I could only manage 5 minutes! (INCREDIBLE! ONLY 5! I was up to 1 hour before!) but at least I am doing it again… I am soooo sore from just 5 minutes of rowing! This morning I hesitantly weighed myself just because I am weighing every week… I lost 3.1 pounds! it is awesome! I am so excited about it! Thank God!!! I hope everything will continue to go in the right direction… as you know I have gained almost 20 pounds of the 50 I had originally lost… I was sad to have reached 190 pounds again… and today I am 187! It’s a lot but I am going down… so I am happy to be a loser! AGAIN! I can keep losing like this every week! LOL! 🙂

So that’s it… I just wanted to share that with you… have to go because my breakfast is waiting for me!

The Thin Lady Inside

It’s Pizza Time!

Hello everybody! I’ve been hanging in there… some days are better than others, some days are easier than others… but it’s mostly my attitude that makes it harder… It is just hard to have gained back so much that I had already lost … But crying about it will do nothing for me… I still cry though… LOL!

Anyway… Saturday night hubby decided to buy pizza… now… pizza is not on plan… and it’s not the cheese and toppings that THM (Trim Healthy Mama) worry about… it’s the bread… and it’s not that we can’t eat bread… but the whole thing about this plan is to try to keep your glycemic index at healthy levels… and pizza crust is just “too much bread” and not necessarily “the good kind” … and then… mixing all those carbs with the amount of fat from the cheese/meats is just too much!

So… instead of “giving in” I decided to invest some time and make my own “plan approved” pizza… “Fooled ya’ Pizza”… This pizza is made with a cauliflower based crust and I found it to be absolutely delicious… Now… the crust won’t really fool ANYBODY! It is NOT BREAD! or bread like! Don’t expect bread flavor or texture to magically come from cauliflower but it is SOOO YUMMY! And if you get your favorite toppings on top… you CAN fool yourself and your cravings and have that “satisfying feel” that pizza can give… but without the guilt!

So… it was my first try to attempt and it was easier than I thought… Hubby loved it too (even when he had already had his own pizza) – I think this recipe would also be “Paleo Diet approved”

I am sharing the recipe from the book because it’s already been shared in multiple blogs, forums and groups.

Here it is: (Disclaimer… if you’re a calorie counter THIS IS NOT a low-calorie dish)

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Here’s the whole pizza with toppings right before putting it in the oven for the toppings to bake.

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This is just the pizza crust once it’s been flipped and baked on both sides.

Fooled ya’ Pizza – Trim Healthy Mama

1. Lightly steam 1 (16oz) bag of frozen cauliflower. (I only had a head of fresh cauliflower and used that.)

2. Put lightly steamed cauliflower in colander and press out as much water as possible. (I used a big spoon to press it with.) The less water the crispier it will be. (Trust me… get ALL THE WATER out of that cauliflower… I can say this enough! Use paper towel if necessary)

3. Transfer cauliflower to a food processor and pulse a few times, NOT to much. You want rice-size pieces.

4. Add 3/4cup egg whites and pulse again a few times. (You can also just use 3 eggs. That’s what I did.)

5. Add 2 cups grated part skim mozzarella cheese, pinch of sea salt, dash or two of Italian seasoning, and a little onion or garlic powder to taste.

6. Mix ingredients together well with a spatula inside the food processor.

7. Line a large cookie sheet with parchment paper and grease parchment well (this is important or the crust will stick.).

8. Plop entire mixture onto the middle of the tray and start spreading it outwards with a spatula or with your hands until it covers most of the sheet. Try not to have a thicker middle than sides. (If you have a perfectionist husband like mine, you wont have to worry about that! He spent quite a bit of time fixing my spreading job. *smile*). Keep pressing until mixture almost touches the edges of the sheet. This crust is better thin, but don’t let the edges become wispy thin or they will get too dark when they cook (it puffs up a bit after cooking).

9. Bake at 450 for 20 minutes. (turn it over after 15 minutes to crisp the bottom. Flip it including the parchment paper, then remove the parchment paper).

10. Cool crust for several minutes before topping.  (Do not skip this step)

Once crust has cooled you can top it with pizza sauce, a little *Very little* more cheese (you don’t need much, since the crust already has it). Add any toppings you want and broil it in the oven until toppings are done.

You need to cut this pizza into smaller, rather than larger pieces. This makes it easier to hold them in your hand. Very large pieces are slightly droopy. Also if you don’t have a food processor you chop it to the “rice-size pieces” – I actually just mashed it with a potato masher while getting all the liquid out and it worked too!

The Thin Lady Inside

Trim Healthy Mama-ing

Hello everybody! I have been following the “Trim Healthy Mama” method (except for one meal where I ate chili and fri-tos!) and it feels good… although my weight hasn’t budged I feel like I am doing something right!

I have incorporated to my diet:

Nutritional Yeast

Stevia Sweetener (drops)

Chia Seeds (amazing super-power food!)

Half&Half/Heavy Whipping Cream

Lots of berries

Lots of veggies

Ezekiel Bread (sprouted bread)

Extra Virgin Coconut Oil (I’ve always loved it! I am glad to be back!)

Butter (plenty of it)

Greek (unsweetened and plain) yogurt (I get to sweeten it with Stevia and enjoy it with my berries!)

(rarely) Dreamfields Pasta – Low Glycemic Index

Brown Rice -in moderation (I’ve always liked it but I used to have the white rice more often)

Not very recommended by the program but “acceptable” I’ve been eating here and there some low-carb mission tortillas (3 Net grams per tortilla)

I have removed from my diet

All forms of sugar (Cane Sugar, Honeys, sweetened Jams, Jellies)

Coffee Creamer (I used to have Sugar Free Vanilla Creamer)

Regular breads that are not sprouted.

Potatoes (I can have 1/2 a sweet potato here and there but never white ones)

White rice (I will miss you THE MOST)

Corn or Corn products

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I still need to get:

“glucommanan” (although it is optional I am totally convinced I should get it for what I’ve read online about its benefits)

konjac noodles (I MUST get these but they’re SOOO expensive! They have great shrinking properties, they’re like a form of pasta but 0 calories! yes … ZERO CALORIES! They’re made from the konjac root! I just know that it’s a noodle and it actually helps you lose weight! I WANT IT!!!)

almond flour (I already got Flaxseed Meal) … There are some bread recipes I am looking to trying where I will need those.

I bought whey protein (sweetened with stevia) but I haven’t tried it yet

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I must eat whole foods and not care about calories (although I do) … I’m extremely motivated by the success stories in the group (including my friend’s -Margi- look at her progress here) And I can’t wait to have my own success story as well!

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I had an initial “bad experience” on the very first day of following the plan… and it was with the Stevia Sweetener … DISGUSTING (was the first thought that crossed my mind) … then I tried to follow one of their recipes for “cake in a mug” and the results were… beautiful looking but really unpleasant.. I thought “everyone was crazy” to eat this stuff! … In the “support groups” on FB I was told to “give it some time” until “all the sugar left my body” and my taste buds would actually (and magically) change! I couldn’t believe it and I didn’t want to BELIEVE IT… I kept my unhealthy Vanilla creamer (which has no sugar) because I thought “Splenda” (I don’t love it… but I thought it’s better than Stevia) would be my only choice… after 5 days of ZERO sugar I gave Stevia another try on my coffee and … it was … PERFECT! Delicious! Now with half&half and stevia drops! Could this be possible??? I tried my vanilla flavored stuff… and it was… too fake! That’s interesting! So I am happy that I am drinking a healthier cup of coffee every night with hubby! I still haven’t given “cake in a mug” another try… maybe some day!

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I feel more freedom when eating… I must say… and I love it that I do get to eat enough carbs! This is not a “low carb diet” … I do have to keep an eye on not going crazy with carbs… but I can eat up to 45 grams in a meal if I want to – when eating higher amounts of carbs I truly have to keep the fats at bay… when eating higher amounts of fats then I HAVE TO keep carbs to a minimum, the limit would be 10 grams per meal- I look forward to seeing results! Hopefully soon 🙂

The Thin Lady Inside

And then some more…

Hello friends! I read all of your comments to my previous post… thank you for supporting me on my highs and lows! You all rock!

So…. talking about highs (*rolling eyes*) turns out that when I weighed myself on Friday and was all bummed out (and wrote the previous post) I was tempted to eat a big thing of pasta with meat sauce I made… I decided I didn’t care anymore and then, when I served all that food on a plate… I realized it was stupid, crazy and senseless! So… if I gain one pound I am going to eat myself into oblivion just to make me gain more, feel horrible and get even further from my goal? NO!  I put the food away and ate none of it… felt awesome! Proud and happy for my decision! I went to bed pretty hungry I must say! LOL and then in the morning ran to the scale to weigh myself like if my “good action” could “magically” give me the results I expected and “miraculously” I would get the “reward” from it… So… imagine my “surprise” when I see the scale go up even HIGHER! I gained another 1.1 pounds… I blinked repeatedly like if I could make it all go away… like if somehow I could change things by blinking! When I stopped I actually laughed and carried on… didn’t let it bum me too much and it really helped that I went to church to focus on greater (and less carnal) things… At least this body is not eternal! 🙂 My spirit is… and lately I have been too concerned with what I eat or not eat… so much that I have been neglecting my spiritual feeding! I know that part of my obesity might be due to the stress I went through with my dad accompanied by the great amounts of food I ate while going through it… (horrible combination) and I know that I still have to watch what I eat, etc… but I need to quit letting it consume me because this “mindset” and emotional state will not help my weight loss efforts.

So… after church I went out for lunch and did great… I felt actually like some “weight” was lifted off of me… I came home, took a long nap and enjoyed the evening with my family afterwards… Today I weighed almost a pound less… and I laughed again… who cares? I keep doing this… I keep forgetting this is my lifestyle and there’s nothing that can bum me out enough to quit it!

Today I’ve been doing great and got out of my pj’s early! I was actually PUTTING ON my pj’s everyday after I showered! it was like my “outfit of choice” … I am making myself get into my jeans and look a bit better…

So… here I am … Thank you all for commenting!

The Thin Lady Inside