I never give up…

Hello peeps, if there’s anybody still around… or if anybody stops by and realizes that there was a long, long time since I last posted and that my last few posts were all about my struggle to find out the reasons why I didn’t seem to be able to lose weight… Just in case anybody wondered what happened to the lady who was looking for the thin-lady-inside of her… I am still here… I just want you to know that no matter what… no matter the struggles… I just DON’T GIVE UP! That’s right! … And while my weight kept slowly (and sometimes not so slowly) but surely creeping up… I never quit my battle against obesity… and while I did reach the 200’s again I didn’t gain all my weight back….

My last resort has been to invest in an expensive gym membership (which included 5 sessions with a fitness trainer and some blood work)

The blood work said what I already knew… Everything looks amazing in paper! They can tell I eat healthy and I exercise because the glucose is spot on, ideal numbers for triglycerides, HDL cholesterol, LDL cholesterol, blood pressure EVERYTHING! … They did a cardio test and they also were able to prove that I wasn’t lying when I said I exercise every day! They got me on the elliptical and it did nothing! High resistance and incline and I was feeling like I was sitting on a couch! My hear rate was so stable and not spiking… I could talk through the whole test… it was… GREAT! The trainer said: Wow, you really are strong… and I even told him when everything was done: “Sorry, I just have to ask… am I the healthiest fat person you’ve ever helped?” I could tell he was afraid to answer … Poor guy! but he finally said: “I am going to have to say yes to that!” LOL… So he started explaining to me that my body had just simply adapted to EVERYTHING I DO… Yes… everything! Including the 10 mile walks, the eating healthy, everything! And when the discouragement came and I did eat out of my normal, healthy stuff… of course I saw even an increase… and that was doing it! So what am I doing now?

  1. Weight Lifting… I had never tried that and the trainer highly recommended it (plus I’ve always had the goal of looking somewhat like a bodybuilder… I know… it might seem crazy… but I really reach for that!)
  2. Switching things around more both with the food and the exercise… in regards to food I am sticking to strictly healthy stuff, avoiding grains but not excluding them, continuing to live a “sugar free lifestyle”, and sticking to what I already used to do of no artificial junk and stuff like that… BUT now I am just making sure that I am not always “eating the same” everyday… adding more fish to my diet and like my trainer said: “When things stop working, change things up a bit”
  3. I am not focusing on the scale…. After 2 weeks of all the training and sticking to my healthy food… I felt stronger yet the scale said I had lost only 2 pounds (what!? I am still walking 10 miles, plus 1 hour of cardio and 1 hour of weights! How can that be?) well… looking deeper into it… and with the right equipment… ALL THE OTHER NUMBERS told a more encouraging story… I had lost 7.5 pounds of fat during those 2 weeks… yet gained 4.5 pounds of lean mass… AMAZING! Had I not known those details I know I would’ve let the 2 pounds be very discouraging! All that work for NOTHING??? BUT …. Now I know I have to REALLY trust other things more than the number on the scale… How do I feel? Am I getting stronger? How do the clothes feel? Etc… and I can’t let the scale ruin all those other tangible victories!
  4. Resting… With this I am still struggling… I have to trust what the trainer said about letting my body rest… I get this weird anxiety if I relax… I feel like I can’t sit or not train for a day because I will get huge… like… on that day! and this takes me to the next point…
  5. Training my mind as well… I am learning a lot about neuroplasticity… which is basically how our thinking affects our brains and our bodies… it might sound like it’s not something serious but being healthy involves our minds too… I have to change the way I think about myself… and even quit the negative thoughts that tell me “I’ll never get to accomplish something” and learn to relax, enjoy and not obsess.

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So … there you see me in the blurry picture above… I have those bands in my legs, I walk sideways with those and it is a great strength exercise for my legs (hips and thighs I think) … I am having a lot of fun and loving seeing results in my body… Hopefully my experience encourages you! I never quit… I just don’t… Find what works for you! I hope I can give you a great update soon!

The Thin Lady Inside

It is happening!

Hello everybody! How are you doing? I am thrilled to announce that struggling and all I’ve lost 10 pounds since I went and visited that horrible Natural Health Center in April…. I remember that as “the date” because it was a very low point in my journey… you can read about it here … If you’ve been following my blog then you know I started at 222.8  pounds (2 and a half years ago)… reached172.8 (50 pounds less) after a few months and then I didn’t seem to be able to go any lower… then it turns out I gained a lot of weight for what seems hormones/stress issues (December 2013) and then in April this year I found out I was 194 pounds!! horrible! I gained 22 pounds back! but Friday I weighed myself and even when I haven’t seen my weight go “dramatically down” I saw the number and it was 184 and that’s when it actually hit me! Yes… I am still heavier than what I had already reached… BUT… I HAVE LOST 10 POUNDS in about 5-6 weeks which is pretty good!!! Yes I’ve struggled but I am just happy to see some changes! I continue to not weigh everyday and I am happy I am at peace with it but it for sure was a nice surprise to see that!

I continue to do great and I am back to running in the mornings (just not as early and just making sure I eat something -a snack- before I run) … It’s harder to run but my friend and I are doing it and we’re planning on doing another 5k in September… today we went for 3.45 miles but ran only 1.3 miles out of those… Feeling good though!

Saturday I walked/ran in the morning and then it was an active day picking blueberries with my family… it’s been quite active around here in the pool and doing fun activities like that… I am sure that also helps reduce any stress/cortisol levels and in consequence aids my weight loss! Yeah! WIN/WIN!

Have a great week everyone!

The Thin Lady Inside

I am a sore loser!

Hello everyone! Here I am … first let me wish you all a “Happy Valentine’s Day” … I am still thinking about healthy treats I can make for hubby so we can enjoy them together… I ordered my 100%birch (USA made) Xylitol yesterday on amazon… (xylitol is a natural sweetener that is plan approved and does not affect your glycemic index, there are two kinds… corn based which is GMO and birch which is good and the one that we will be using) so… anyway… I ordered it and I will be getting it in about 5-8 days… so… obviously I can’t use it to bake… Stevia has too much of a weird (and very bitter) aftertaste for me especially when baking so … I can’t think of anything else to make! We’ll see.

So… yes… I am a sore loser… it turns out that yesterday I got back on my rowing machine… it had been abandoned for a long time and yesterday started back at it… I could only manage 5 minutes! (INCREDIBLE! ONLY 5! I was up to 1 hour before!) but at least I am doing it again… I am soooo sore from just 5 minutes of rowing! This morning I hesitantly weighed myself just because I am weighing every week… I lost 3.1 pounds! it is awesome! I am so excited about it! Thank God!!! I hope everything will continue to go in the right direction… as you know I have gained almost 20 pounds of the 50 I had originally lost… I was sad to have reached 190 pounds again… and today I am 187! It’s a lot but I am going down… so I am happy to be a loser! AGAIN! I can keep losing like this every week! LOL! 🙂

So that’s it… I just wanted to share that with you… have to go because my breakfast is waiting for me!

The Thin Lady Inside

It’s Pizza Time!

Hello everybody! I’ve been hanging in there… some days are better than others, some days are easier than others… but it’s mostly my attitude that makes it harder… It is just hard to have gained back so much that I had already lost … But crying about it will do nothing for me… I still cry though… LOL!

Anyway… Saturday night hubby decided to buy pizza… now… pizza is not on plan… and it’s not the cheese and toppings that THM (Trim Healthy Mama) worry about… it’s the bread… and it’s not that we can’t eat bread… but the whole thing about this plan is to try to keep your glycemic index at healthy levels… and pizza crust is just “too much bread” and not necessarily “the good kind” … and then… mixing all those carbs with the amount of fat from the cheese/meats is just too much!

So… instead of “giving in” I decided to invest some time and make my own “plan approved” pizza… “Fooled ya’ Pizza”… This pizza is made with a cauliflower based crust and I found it to be absolutely delicious… Now… the crust won’t really fool ANYBODY! It is NOT BREAD! or bread like! Don’t expect bread flavor or texture to magically come from cauliflower but it is SOOO YUMMY! And if you get your favorite toppings on top… you CAN fool yourself and your cravings and have that “satisfying feel” that pizza can give… but without the guilt!

So… it was my first try to attempt and it was easier than I thought… Hubby loved it too (even when he had already had his own pizza) – I think this recipe would also be “Paleo Diet approved”

I am sharing the recipe from the book because it’s already been shared in multiple blogs, forums and groups.

Here it is: (Disclaimer… if you’re a calorie counter THIS IS NOT a low-calorie dish)

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Here’s the whole pizza with toppings right before putting it in the oven for the toppings to bake.

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This is just the pizza crust once it’s been flipped and baked on both sides.

Fooled ya’ Pizza – Trim Healthy Mama

1. Lightly steam 1 (16oz) bag of frozen cauliflower. (I only had a head of fresh cauliflower and used that.)

2. Put lightly steamed cauliflower in colander and press out as much water as possible. (I used a big spoon to press it with.) The less water the crispier it will be. (Trust me… get ALL THE WATER out of that cauliflower… I can say this enough! Use paper towel if necessary)

3. Transfer cauliflower to a food processor and pulse a few times, NOT to much. You want rice-size pieces.

4. Add 3/4cup egg whites and pulse again a few times. (You can also just use 3 eggs. That’s what I did.)

5. Add 2 cups grated part skim mozzarella cheese, pinch of sea salt, dash or two of Italian seasoning, and a little onion or garlic powder to taste.

6. Mix ingredients together well with a spatula inside the food processor.

7. Line a large cookie sheet with parchment paper and grease parchment well (this is important or the crust will stick.).

8. Plop entire mixture onto the middle of the tray and start spreading it outwards with a spatula or with your hands until it covers most of the sheet. Try not to have a thicker middle than sides. (If you have a perfectionist husband like mine, you wont have to worry about that! He spent quite a bit of time fixing my spreading job. *smile*). Keep pressing until mixture almost touches the edges of the sheet. This crust is better thin, but don’t let the edges become wispy thin or they will get too dark when they cook (it puffs up a bit after cooking).

9. Bake at 450 for 20 minutes. (turn it over after 15 minutes to crisp the bottom. Flip it including the parchment paper, then remove the parchment paper).

10. Cool crust for several minutes before topping.  (Do not skip this step)

Once crust has cooled you can top it with pizza sauce, a little *Very little* more cheese (you don’t need much, since the crust already has it). Add any toppings you want and broil it in the oven until toppings are done.

You need to cut this pizza into smaller, rather than larger pieces. This makes it easier to hold them in your hand. Very large pieces are slightly droopy. Also if you don’t have a food processor you chop it to the “rice-size pieces” – I actually just mashed it with a potato masher while getting all the liquid out and it worked too!

The Thin Lady Inside

Trim Healthy Mama-ing

Hello everybody! I have been following the “Trim Healthy Mama” method (except for one meal where I ate chili and fri-tos!) and it feels good… although my weight hasn’t budged I feel like I am doing something right!

I have incorporated to my diet:

Nutritional Yeast

Stevia Sweetener (drops)

Chia Seeds (amazing super-power food!)

Half&Half/Heavy Whipping Cream

Lots of berries

Lots of veggies

Ezekiel Bread (sprouted bread)

Extra Virgin Coconut Oil (I’ve always loved it! I am glad to be back!)

Butter (plenty of it)

Greek (unsweetened and plain) yogurt (I get to sweeten it with Stevia and enjoy it with my berries!)

(rarely) Dreamfields Pasta – Low Glycemic Index

Brown Rice -in moderation (I’ve always liked it but I used to have the white rice more often)

Not very recommended by the program but “acceptable” I’ve been eating here and there some low-carb mission tortillas (3 Net grams per tortilla)

I have removed from my diet

All forms of sugar (Cane Sugar, Honeys, sweetened Jams, Jellies)

Coffee Creamer (I used to have Sugar Free Vanilla Creamer)

Regular breads that are not sprouted.

Potatoes (I can have 1/2 a sweet potato here and there but never white ones)

White rice (I will miss you THE MOST)

Corn or Corn products

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I still need to get:

“glucommanan” (although it is optional I am totally convinced I should get it for what I’ve read online about its benefits)

konjac noodles (I MUST get these but they’re SOOO expensive! They have great shrinking properties, they’re like a form of pasta but 0 calories! yes … ZERO CALORIES! They’re made from the konjac root! I just know that it’s a noodle and it actually helps you lose weight! I WANT IT!!!)

almond flour (I already got Flaxseed Meal) … There are some bread recipes I am looking to trying where I will need those.

I bought whey protein (sweetened with stevia) but I haven’t tried it yet

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I must eat whole foods and not care about calories (although I do) … I’m extremely motivated by the success stories in the group (including my friend’s -Margi- look at her progress here) And I can’t wait to have my own success story as well!

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I had an initial “bad experience” on the very first day of following the plan… and it was with the Stevia Sweetener … DISGUSTING (was the first thought that crossed my mind) … then I tried to follow one of their recipes for “cake in a mug” and the results were… beautiful looking but really unpleasant.. I thought “everyone was crazy” to eat this stuff! … In the “support groups” on FB I was told to “give it some time” until “all the sugar left my body” and my taste buds would actually (and magically) change! I couldn’t believe it and I didn’t want to BELIEVE IT… I kept my unhealthy Vanilla creamer (which has no sugar) because I thought “Splenda” (I don’t love it… but I thought it’s better than Stevia) would be my only choice… after 5 days of ZERO sugar I gave Stevia another try on my coffee and … it was … PERFECT! Delicious! Now with half&half and stevia drops! Could this be possible??? I tried my vanilla flavored stuff… and it was… too fake! That’s interesting! So I am happy that I am drinking a healthier cup of coffee every night with hubby! I still haven’t given “cake in a mug” another try… maybe some day!

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I feel more freedom when eating… I must say… and I love it that I do get to eat enough carbs! This is not a “low carb diet” … I do have to keep an eye on not going crazy with carbs… but I can eat up to 45 grams in a meal if I want to – when eating higher amounts of carbs I truly have to keep the fats at bay… when eating higher amounts of fats then I HAVE TO keep carbs to a minimum, the limit would be 10 grams per meal- I look forward to seeing results! Hopefully soon 🙂

The Thin Lady Inside

I am a legalistic “dieter”

Hello everybody! Here I am! Today was my first day in the “Trim Healthy Mama” (THM for short) method! I am all happy, excited, doubtful, nervous, motivated, fearful, encouraged and skeptic at the same time. THM has facebook groups and I am there probably making the moderators go crazy… 1st. I post about how excited I am … then I question the whole “concept” behind it… then I humbly admit I am afraid of failing and later I am all excited all over again. Yes…. all in ONE Day!

The thing is that this is what *I* would call a “Grace based method” … they tell you to eat certain things (like butter) “freely” … now … these ladies, the ones that wrote the book and created this system… FOR SURE DON’T KNOW *ME* … You can NOT tell me to eat “anything” freely because…. MY freely looks very different from most people’s freely.

The idea behind the method is to leave your “calorie counting” behind and to embrace the fact that your body will know what to do with the calories you eat if you make good choices and do not mix “fuel types” (fuel types talking about fat vs. carb) so… While for some meals I get to eat very fatty everything and very low carbs … for others the carbs are increased and the fats really decreased while keeping “protein” always at the center.

When eating those “fatty meals” they don’t give you “calorie numbers” or “amount limits” (except for very few items) so… that “freedom” makes me very nervous…

I speak about “grace and legalism” because that’s what I can compare it to… You know? For example… We are saved by GRACE and not through good works… Jesus died for us on the cross, resurrected and paid the price… there’s nothing I need to add to that… it was finished. BUT … out of love (and not because of the “law”) we live a “grace based” life… living for him… with the freedom to choose and do the right thing… just because it comes natural, there are struggles but doing good works, even when not necessary for salvation are just a response to that grace that has been given to us…

But… there are other people… that might feel the need to abide “by the law” even when knowing that ONLY GRACE saves… the law keeps them accountable… especially for those things where they might be weaker… just to give an example… some see “drinking alcohol” as a freedom and as something we can do “in moderation” … some others completely abstain from it… and feel it’s a form of sin… the one under “grace” might feel it’s “stupid” to have those “legalistic boundaries” but for the one who might struggle with alcohol those “boundaries” are actually “liberating”

I don’t even know if I am making any sense… with what i am trying to say… The way I see it is like this: “when it comes to eating I NEED THE LAW” … I need the restrictions, the amounts and numbers… and the good thing is that even when THM is not ABOUT THAT you can still “adapt it” to what works for you without “getting far from the plan”

So… what I do … is… eat the things recommended by the plan… with the formulas used by the plan (never mixing fuels, keeping carbs at bay when eating “S type meals” and keeping fats low when eating “E type meals”, etc.) but I ALSO count calories… now  I don’t try to keep them at the low numbers of 1200-1400 but “I watch them” to not exceed the “healthy numbers” and I feel … that by doing this… I keep myself accountable, in check and in a healthy balance.

I know many people hate counting calories… and they see it as a “dreadful restriction”… for me… I find freedom in those limits!!!

So… I guess now that I’ve thought of how I am going to approach this new method… I can say… I am EXCITED!

My day today looks like this so far: (Today I am doing a LOW CARB DAY – only THM “S” type meals- just because of my ‘carb addiction’ I am “shocking my body” but my future days will not look like this)

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(Daily Goals are determined by the amount of exercise, etc… and based on my previous settings for “low calorie days” so those are not the ones to follow for THM, the numbers that I follow are the “totals”)

I hope this will work for me.

The Thin Lady Inside

Since I am not pregnant….

Hello friends… I am back… it’s been a couple of whinny days here for me… I truly believe my hormones might be playing with me…. No AF yet (AF stands for “Always Faithful” and … well… a woman should understand the term) …. so… No AF yet and still struggling with hot flashed and mood swings… I consider myself to be a mostly happy person and very balanced… but lately I find myself irritable and over-reactive… I think of myself as a very rational person and… so much so… that I know I AM BEING IRRATIONAL too often lately. I hate it. So… I hope that starts to “fix itself” as I find motivation to continue working with my weight and exercising.

As of now… I am starting something NEW … A friend of mine told me of this “new” thing that’s going on… The name is “Trim Healthy Mama” … has any of you heard about it? Well… it’s a different kind of eating system… it’s not really “new” because obviously there’s “nothing new under the sun” … it’s about the way we combine foods (I’ve been reading and I think they always refer to food as “fuel”) so they tell you of the types of fuel you should eat and how you should change them and not combine them, etc….

It seems to not exclude entire groups of foods (which I like) and it’s not based on calorie counting (which scares me… because I’ve mastered that one! I have so much “calorie information” in my brain that I feel like it’s all been a waste!) but I am willing and open to try something else before I even consider medication as the doctor suggested.

So… I am excited, scared and realistic… also optimistic but mostly realistic… I ordered the Trim Healthy Mama Book and I am waiting for it… just ordered it today and will be here in about a week. I’ll let you all know what I think about it! My friend who suggested it used to count calories on myfitnesspal too and she was doing good but nothing “out of the ordinary” … then she tried the THM method and has lost a lot even over the holidays! and she says she feels satisfied and great. So… we’ll see… I know we’re all different and what works for some might not work for others but I’d rather try it all than quit! That’s not an option… EVER!

I just wanted to give an update… Thank you all for standing by me!

The Thin Lady Inside.