Slow but steady!

Hello people! I am here just to say that I am continuing to see slow progress in my weight… First of all I am thankful with God… because if He wasn’t giving me strength I would’ve probably quit a long time ago, when I stopped seeing any results (on the scale)… I am thankful I still saw health improvements and that also kept me motivated to go on… But right now I am just thrilled to start seeing the numbers go down again… I think what’s been doing it also is … well… the thyroid hormone treatment, I am sure it’s helping… BUT also the changes I made… trying to get rid of processed stuff (my nightly ice cream treat) that even when it was low in calories it still had plenty of sugar… I am actually eating about 150 more calories a day (I am usually at 1350 calories now) I substituted the nightly ice cream for fruit that I eat throughout the day… I think when I made the switch I started seeing some of this progress… It might have been the “extra push” my body was needing

Today I am 174.1 pounds (I hadn’t been able to leave the 178 -182 pound range for a long, long, long, long time -over a year of trying and trying-)

and I am ecstatic! My hopes and dreams of hopefully crossing to the 160’s before going on our Family Vacation might not be too far fetched anymore. We shall see!

The Thin Lady Inside

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I guess it’s a good thing…

I guess it’s a good thing I am so stubborn… I am determined to reach my weight loss goal… no matter what… I do have ups and downs… some days are better than others… some days I feel like I “can’t do it” but I know, deep down… I am never going to quit this! I can’t just “walk away” from it… defeated… I can’t give up my dream of reaching a normal weight… I am not even pursuing a “skinny or perfect body” I just want to reach a healthy weight! Today… I went to the dr. again, another one because the previous one, well… you probably read about it here already… let’s just say “she wasn’t good” … anyway… This doctor explained to me that the thyroid hormone (T4) is produced by the thyroid (obviously) and there is another hormone that is in charge of “stimulating” the thyroid (TSH) so the T4 hormone is produced… Well… it turns out that my T4 hormone is in the normal range… (HUH????!!!) and that they just thought they would give me more of that T4 hormone (synthroid) just because the TSH was a little elevated, which, seems to mean that my thyroid might  be having to work a little harder to produce the T4 and that’s why the TSH levels are elevated… BUT … everything is “pretty much within range” (WHAT?) the doctor touched my neck and she says that she does feel like my thyroid might be a little swollen but … and then she said it… “Does anybody in your family have LUPUS?” … No! Nobody in my family has lupus, she mentioned that because of my “RA history” and the sensitivity of my skin, the tiredness and weight issues… she thinks I might have lupus and that all the symptoms might seem “independent” from each other but it might all be connected… she mentioned that RA is very aggressive and since I am not being treated and “just from looking at me” she can almost for sure say I have no RA… she says that Lupus is not as aggressive with the joints and that those “flare ups” come in “waves” sporadically … and that’s what makes her think I might have Lupus… She referred me to a rheumatologist and I have an appt. with him on the 31st. this month… -sigh- She mentioned that the test I got done almost a year ago to check for Lupus (the name of the test is ANA ) is not conclusive… I still got some lab tests done today again to keep an eye on my thyroid (My mom’s side of the family has big, big thyroid issues, one of my uncles was just diagnosed with thyroid cancer last week even) but that I should still get tested for Lupus… So I am just praying and waiting… Working and Fighting… Today’s work out was great and my eating has been great… One day at a time! One day at a time!

 

The Thin Lady Inside

My new Goal

So… Hello everybody… Here I am … still with a lingering congestion that will not give up! I can’t even hear well! LOL! I had a bad head cold and fever for a couple of days… I couldn’t go exercise for a whole week… But I’ve been doing good with my eating and today regardless of the sniffling and coughing I decided to at least get up early for a walk even if the “run” wasn’t going to happen… It felt good to be back outside and moving!

So… As you know I set monthly goals on my Wii Balance Board… and It’s been over a year since I have reached any kind of goal… Yes I’ve lost weight and then I’ve gained more… Now, I don’t want to keep repeating it, but yes… now we know my thyroid issues play an important role in my lack of success with my weight loss… So… When I started taking levothyroxine (synthetic thyroid hormones -generic brand-) I thought I would start losing weight so I set a new goal to lose 3 pounds in a month, it sounds like “it’s nothing” but I thought it was a realistic number given my “condition”… I hoped I would soon see some decrease in my numbers but, on the contrary, I put on about 5 to 6 pounds… in a week or two!!! it was crazy and very discouraging! Then about 2 weeks ago I found out that the doctor didn’t mention I could take the “brand name” medication… called synthroid and that some people report it’s done a better job for them than the generic brand, we did the switch and it must be somewhat working because today… today… I reached my 3 pounds weight loss in the month… which MEANS that I’ve lost all the weight I had put on during the generic brand medication (5 pounds) and then the 3 pounds that I had originally determined I’d lose! I must say I don’t look that different… I don’t know what the levothyroxine was doing… I don’t know if it was liquid retention, I do feel less bloated, particularly my face… but I am happy that I am not in the 180’s anymore… I am at 177 and I have a new goal… My goal will be the same realistic one for this new month… another 3 pounds to lose in 4 weeks and let’s see how it goes! Hopefully good! I was telling my husband that I’d love it if my “thyroid medicine” would not only help me lose weight from now on but it would be great if it was “retroactive” … LOL! Wouldn’t it be great if all of a sudden when my hormone levels get balanced I would just lose all the weight I was supposed to lose during this year of exercise and healthy eating? LOL! … But oh well! that would probably be too much to ask! I’ll be just happy to not see the numbers go up anymore on my scale!

The Thin Lady Inside

Playing games and eating pizza….

Well… Playing games… that’s what my doctor seems to be doing… the pizza…. well… I did that! LOL!

Allow me to explain… Yesterday I went to the doctor again, to see if all of my rashes could be some sort of side effect from the medication I am taking.. the Levothyroxine… because it doesn’t look anymore like the allergic reaction I got from the pool, and it’s only around my elbows… and ankles… so.. anyway… I also went to the doctor because of my weight gain… Instead of losing weight I seem to be gaining more! I am now at almost 185 POUNDS!!! What in the world? I’ve gained about 8 pounds … in a few days! So… anyway… I went to the doctor and she looked at me, for a second, but not really at me, never really eye contact, she just looked at my arms to see the rash, kind of quick… like a glance, sat in front of her computer and didn’t look at me again, I kept talking to the back of her head for the next 3 minutes, she told me it must be the same pool rash, I explained to her that the allergic reaction I get from the pool it’s usually on my face, neck and shoulders, my lips swell, etc… this is different, this is on my elbows and it’s not going away or getting better even when I haven’t been to the pool for about 3 weeks. This is how the conversation went

Me: “I was just wondering if this rash could be a side effect from the medicine I am taking, the levothyroxine”

Doctor: “No, that’s not it”

Me: “oh! And I am gaining more weight” 

Doctor: “Well, then eat less and exercise more”

Hubby interrupting in frustration: “She can’t do that! She is already exercising a lot and eating only 1200 calories!”

Doctor: “Well, then stop taking the medicine if that’s what you think it is”

Hubby: -his jaw just dropped, I think he managed to only articulate “BUT”-

Me: “Don’t I need the medicine?”

Doctor: “Well, not really, your levels are not that off, I just thought it would help, your thyroid is not too bad”-

Me: -feeling like I am going to cry- “So… “

Hubby: -manages to say something- “But why do you think this all is? why would she be gaining weight? Is there anything else we can do?”

Doctor: “Well, I am not a weight loss specialist, maybe she should try a Diet Clinic, also the medicine I prescribed is generic, it’s not the pure hormone, it has dyes and other stuff”

Hubby: -dumbfounded- “why didn’t you prescribed the real stuff”?

Doctor: She is now looking at hubby, angry to be questioned “I don’t know if your insurance will cover that, you might have to pay part of it”

Hubby: “but at least you could give us the option”

Doctor: “Well if you still want to take it I can prescribe that, here you go” – she turns to her computer again, places the prescription and says “ok, let me know what you find” and left…

I was shocked… I was now wondering if I even have hypothyroidism at all, I was left with more questions than answers, I was shocked at the poor service and horrible attitude, I left and called my mom, I told her I wanted to see her doctor in Mexico (he’s always been great) or at least talk to him to know what he thinks, I e-mailed him, even pics of my rash, sent him all my test results and he says I definitely have hypothyroidism and that I can NOT stop taking that medicine, he told me to go ahead and get the real stuff (which by the way only costs 26 dollars) and he wants to do a whole gynecologic hormonal profile (or something like that)… I will be following up with him from now on…

Hubby went online and on the FDA information about the generic medicine I was taking it mentions the side effects of the medicine… and it says that people with a history of RA have presented dermatitis like mine… I do have a history of RA!!! and the doctor knows that!!! Also, hubby found out that some people have reported to have gained weight with the generic stuff and have lost it once they took the name brand stuff… UNBELIEVABLE!

It was quite a frustrating day and when it was time for dinner hubby said: “Ok… I am going to buy pizza and YOU are going to eat too” I didn’t refuse… I sat at the table with my family and my 4 yr. old, when blessing the food, said: “Thank you God that mommy is going to eat pizza with us” 🙂 … She was so excited! LOL! I ate pizza, drank soda and just enjoyed… if just for a night! I felt much better afterwards! I still counted calories and I had eaten so little for the day that I ended at 2000 calories regardless of the 3 slices of pizza and soda! I burned 2500 calories total for the day so I still had a deficit of 500! Not the best food to eat but even in my indulging I still managed to not do too bad!

The Thin Lady Inside

Singing the same song

I should write a country song or some sad, heart-felt blues….

“I’ve been trying to lose it… I’ve been working really hard

I’ve done everything I can … and I am still in the same place

I don’t know when it will go away… I am hungry and in pain

and this weight resists to leave me alone… I can’t take it anymore…” oooh! Ooooh!

(I hope it sounds the same in your head as it sounds in mine) It sounds pretty cool… lol! But it’s a sad, sad song… I am still struggling with my weight… As you know I started the thyroid hormone treatment about 3 weeks ago (right?) well… I saw some weight loss after a few days… and then … wham! I gained it all back and more… I had reached 177 pounds and I am back at 183… within TWO days I gained over 5 pounds… it was just PAINFUL to watch! And I can’t even say “my scale is lying” because even my husband came home from work one night and this is how our conversation went right when he saw me:

Hubby: “whoa! Are you ok???”

Me: “what? Why??!”

Hubby (now afraid to say something): “ummm… you ummm, I don’t know… are you swollen?”

(he knows I get an allergic reaction when I get in the pool and I swell and get all bloated and a horrible rash on the face… so I’ve stayed away from the pool! of course!)

Me: “not that I know” (hesitating and touching my face alarmed)

Hubby: (getting closer to me… inspecting me, inquisitively) oh, ok… mmm I think you look really bloated…

Me: (running to the mirror, and seeing me the same way I saw myself all day long) “ummm… I had just thought I was having a “fat day”  but I guess it’s not just in my mind huh”

-sigh- … My shorts feel tighter around the waist, my face does look bigger, I am a mess!

I do have a rash from the last time I got in the pool but it’s on my elbows and legs, my skin is really sensitive so I can’t even shave myself right now (sorry! TMI!) so I feel like a horrible, bloated, hairy monster! -sigh- (sorry about the mental picture)

It’s incredible! I just scheduled another appt. with the doctor… I’ll have it today… that’s why I’ve been away from the blog again, nothing to report except weight gain… Right now I am trying to eat ONLY 1200 calories in the day… Today I had already burned over 1000 calories by 6:30 a.m. after bootcamp and a walk… I don’t know what else to do…

The Thin Lady Inside

Daily weigh-in

Well, as I mentioned before, now that we’ve found the root cause behind my inability to lose weight for a whole year regardless of my (obsessive) calorie counting and discipline exercising, etc… I have decided to weigh myself everyday again to see when the “improvements” start showing and keep close track of every variation… today… I weighed myself and there’s no change… not one ounce of weight gain or loss… which is good! I am thankful for not seeing weight gain… so my weight is: 181 pounds… My goal is to have lost 3 pounds in a month… that is not a lot for a “healthy person” but for me, I think it’s a good goal hoping that the medication starts working… I think it’s not too unrealistic but I must be prepared to not even reach that goal… I hope to do so!

My day yesterday was good, I ate 1834 calories and burned a total of 2416 cals. Right now I am not going too low in my calorie count because of the “condition” but I am still trying to have a calorie deficit of 750 everyday -although yesterday it was only 582-! I’d say my “food related sin” yesterday were cheetos… we went to the beach and I packed sandwiches, pistachios, hummus and crackers to munch on… Hubby bought those cheesy temptations and I ate them too! we walked by the ocean and when we came back I went to the gym and spent an hour there, walked and ran, I only ran 2 miles but walked 2 more there, I burned 624 calories and felt great afterwards! I don’t let any day pass without exercising! Today I was supposed to go to bootcamp from 5-6 but hubby had a Bible Study at 6 so he had to leave earlier (5:40 a.m.) so I had to stay home instead (we have two little ones and it didn’t make sense to get up at 4:30 a.m. drive to bootcamp just to be there only 25 minutes and drive back to be here before he left) so I just slept longer this morning… I will try to go to the gym when he gets home from work tonight.

Now… let’s face the day!

The Thin Lady Inside

A new chapter

I don’t even want to dwell on thoughts like “If I had known sooner…., If I had gone to the doctor 6 or 8 months ago…” No time for “Ifs” … because “IF” I start thinking like that I will just get frustrated… thinking of all the weight I would’ve lost already… or just having felt better all this time… As you can see my mind goes “there” … but I need to “shake it off” and move forward… thinking of what’s ahead instead of what could’ve been… It’s a new chapter and I am just full of hopes for it… leaving the “could’ve” behind and focusing on what “can” be…

So… today I weighed myself… gained another .4 pounds… big sigh… checking how I feel… Not too bad… Not like I used to every time I saw the scale go up… This time I know there’s a reason and I am doing something about it… so… let’s see what my “starting” weight is

181 pounds, almost crossing the line between overweight and obesity… but it’s ok… I know the treatment is not “instant” and I’ll have to be patient… at least I am on the right track now…

Today… because it’s Memorial Day hubby has the day off, he’s sleeping as I type… I didn’t go running because my running pal decided to sleep in and of course I didn’t complain… I needed a day of not waking up at 4:30-5:00 to run… I’ll get my running done later! I must say that running has been getting harder with my weight increase… I have indeed felt heavier and bloated… but it’s not undoable… looking at the bright side I must say that my heart rate gets pretty high quicker and I burn more calories due to my heaviness LOL! … Ok… have to go now… the girlies need breakfast!

The Thin Lady Inside