I never give up…

Hello peeps, if there’s anybody still around… or if anybody stops by and realizes that there was a long, long time since I last posted and that my last few posts were all about my struggle to find out the reasons why I didn’t seem to be able to lose weight… Just in case anybody wondered what happened to the lady who was looking for the thin-lady-inside of her… I am still here… I just want you to know that no matter what… no matter the struggles… I just DON’T GIVE UP! That’s right! … And while my weight kept slowly (and sometimes not so slowly) but surely creeping up… I never quit my battle against obesity… and while I did reach the 200’s again I didn’t gain all my weight back….

My last resort has been to invest in an expensive gym membership (which included 5 sessions with a fitness trainer and some blood work)

The blood work said what I already knew… Everything looks amazing in paper! They can tell I eat healthy and I exercise because the glucose is spot on, ideal numbers for triglycerides, HDL cholesterol, LDL cholesterol, blood pressure EVERYTHING! … They did a cardio test and they also were able to prove that I wasn’t lying when I said I exercise every day! They got me on the elliptical and it did nothing! High resistance and incline and I was feeling like I was sitting on a couch! My hear rate was so stable and not spiking… I could talk through the whole test… it was… GREAT! The trainer said: Wow, you really are strong… and I even told him when everything was done: “Sorry, I just have to ask… am I the healthiest fat person you’ve ever helped?” I could tell he was afraid to answer … Poor guy! but he finally said: “I am going to have to say yes to that!” LOL… So he started explaining to me that my body had just simply adapted to EVERYTHING I DO… Yes… everything! Including the 10 mile walks, the eating healthy, everything! And when the discouragement came and I did eat out of my normal, healthy stuff… of course I saw even an increase… and that was doing it! So what am I doing now?

  1. Weight Lifting… I had never tried that and the trainer highly recommended it (plus I’ve always had the goal of looking somewhat like a bodybuilder… I know… it might seem crazy… but I really reach for that!)
  2. Switching things around more both with the food and the exercise… in regards to food I am sticking to strictly healthy stuff, avoiding grains but not excluding them, continuing to live a “sugar free lifestyle”, and sticking to what I already used to do of no artificial junk and stuff like that… BUT now I am just making sure that I am not always “eating the same” everyday… adding more fish to my diet and like my trainer said: “When things stop working, change things up a bit”
  3. I am not focusing on the scale…. After 2 weeks of all the training and sticking to my healthy food… I felt stronger yet the scale said I had lost only 2 pounds (what!? I am still walking 10 miles, plus 1 hour of cardio and 1 hour of weights! How can that be?) well… looking deeper into it… and with the right equipment… ALL THE OTHER NUMBERS told a more encouraging story… I had lost 7.5 pounds of fat during those 2 weeks… yet gained 4.5 pounds of lean mass… AMAZING! Had I not known those details I know I would’ve let the 2 pounds be very discouraging! All that work for NOTHING??? BUT …. Now I know I have to REALLY trust other things more than the number on the scale… How do I feel? Am I getting stronger? How do the clothes feel? Etc… and I can’t let the scale ruin all those other tangible victories!
  4. Resting… With this I am still struggling… I have to trust what the trainer said about letting my body rest… I get this weird anxiety if I relax… I feel like I can’t sit or not train for a day because I will get huge… like… on that day! and this takes me to the next point…
  5. Training my mind as well… I am learning a lot about neuroplasticity… which is basically how our thinking affects our brains and our bodies… it might sound like it’s not something serious but being healthy involves our minds too… I have to change the way I think about myself… and even quit the negative thoughts that tell me “I’ll never get to accomplish something” and learn to relax, enjoy and not obsess.

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So … there you see me in the blurry picture above… I have those bands in my legs, I walk sideways with those and it is a great strength exercise for my legs (hips and thighs I think) … I am having a lot of fun and loving seeing results in my body… Hopefully my experience encourages you! I never quit… I just don’t… Find what works for you! I hope I can give you a great update soon!

The Thin Lady Inside

It is happening!

Hello everybody! How are you doing? I am thrilled to announce that struggling and all I’ve lost 10 pounds since I went and visited that horrible Natural Health Center in April…. I remember that as “the date” because it was a very low point in my journey… you can read about it here … If you’ve been following my blog then you know I started at 222.8  pounds (2 and a half years ago)… reached172.8 (50 pounds less) after a few months and then I didn’t seem to be able to go any lower… then it turns out I gained a lot of weight for what seems hormones/stress issues (December 2013) and then in April this year I found out I was 194 pounds!! horrible! I gained 22 pounds back! but Friday I weighed myself and even when I haven’t seen my weight go “dramatically down” I saw the number and it was 184 and that’s when it actually hit me! Yes… I am still heavier than what I had already reached… BUT… I HAVE LOST 10 POUNDS in about 5-6 weeks which is pretty good!!! Yes I’ve struggled but I am just happy to see some changes! I continue to not weigh everyday and I am happy I am at peace with it but it for sure was a nice surprise to see that!

I continue to do great and I am back to running in the mornings (just not as early and just making sure I eat something -a snack- before I run) … It’s harder to run but my friend and I are doing it and we’re planning on doing another 5k in September… today we went for 3.45 miles but ran only 1.3 miles out of those… Feeling good though!

Saturday I walked/ran in the morning and then it was an active day picking blueberries with my family… it’s been quite active around here in the pool and doing fun activities like that… I am sure that also helps reduce any stress/cortisol levels and in consequence aids my weight loss! Yeah! WIN/WIN!

Have a great week everyone!

The Thin Lady Inside

Because she believes me!

Hello everybody, here I am … today is day 9 of the Fast Metabolism Diet 28 day plan! This plan is supposed to heal your metabolism in about 28 days, some people have a slower metabolism than others, some have more or less weight to lose than others… so if by day 28 you’re “not done” you just start all over again… People have asked me “what made me try the Fast Metabolism Diet” and I always say “she believes me” … Allow me to explain: when I heard about this plan I thought I wouldn’t be able to do it because NO DAIRY is allowed… at all… no yogurt, butter, milk (except for rice/almond/coconut milks), kefir, sour cream, cheese, nothing! and I thought I for sure would never even try something that would separate me and dairy! Nothing could ever come between us! NOTHING! but… as I continued to read the book I found something that Haily Pomroy (author of the FMD) said that touched the very depths of my soul … she said: “I believe you!” … She says in her book that some of her customers come to her tired of dieting, skeptic to try something “new” or “opposing what they’ve learned in other diets” etc… and they tell her in frustration how they have REALLY ADHERED to other strict eating plans without any good results… and she says that she believes them … and then she talked to me, the reader, and said: “I believe you! I believe that you have done it, I believe that you have counted calories, I believe that you have only eaten protein or carbs, or whatever the diets required of you” (paraphrasing) I BELIEVE YOU! And it’s been so long since I last felt someone “believed me” … even when trying THM (Trim Healthy Mama, which I love) when I would come up to the wonderful groups where everyone is really, sincerely supportive and nice… I found that people would say “well, maybe you’re not doing this or that, well, maybe you are doing something wrong, maybe you’re eating too much of something, etc” … when I would go to doctors when I was eating low calories and exercising a lot they looked at me and smiled in disbelief and said “well eat less and exercise more!” … and for the first time… I found someone who said… “I believe you!” … Haylie doesn’t know me… personally (obviously) … but she knows I (and many others like me) exist! and she knows I (we) have really tried! she believes it… but there’s something else why diets don’t work even when test results come back from the doctor’s office saying that everything is “apparently normal” … So… because she believed me… I believe her! And I will do this as well… with everything I have! Sometimes I have doubts while doing this program… but I mostly doubt myself… Am I eating too much? And I go back to my meal maps that she put together… and I trust it and “Let it go” …. I weighed myself yesterday and I lost 2 pounds on my first week.. it’s not a lot but I am not stressing out… I am truly letting go and doing this thing! Hopefully my metabolism will get it!

The Thin (and hopeful) Lady Inside

Phase 3 I LOVE YOU!

Hello everyone! So… I have followed the “Fast Metabolism Diet” (FMD for short) Program for 4 days now… which means I’ve gone through Phase 1 (2 days of high -and healthy- carbs and fruit sugars, moderate protein, low *or non existent* fat) …. Phase 2 (2days of boring, headache inducing plain, lean protein *not even egg yolks!!* and unlimited vegetables, but not any vegetables just the least satisfying ones, not even cauliflower!!, zero carbs, zero fat, zero sugars) and today… today begins Phase 3 where your efforts are rewarded (LOL) where you tell your body “what? you thought you couldn’t eat fat? that’s not true, here goes some fat! No need to store any! keep losing!” so on phase 3 you get to eat protein (some fattier protein too like salmon, skinless but delicious chicken thighs, you also eat healthy grains, some kinds of delicious fruit, seeds and nuts and vegetables, you’re very liberal with some satisfying vegetables like sweet potatoes, carrots, etc… and on top of all that… avocado! up to 3/4 of an entire avocado, coconut oil, nut butters, etc.) can you tell I am excited? Ah! Today I am happy! And just ecstatic that Phase 3 last longer than the other 2, you have 3 full days to nurture your body with healthy fats and just tell your system “it’s ok, it’s ok to let go!”. Each phase is essential for the program and 1 can’t exist without the others … keeps your metabolism confused and it’s important to do exercises that are “phase appropriate” … so I did cardio on phase 1, strength training on phase 2 and I will be doing some dry skin brushing today, focusing on un-stressing and hopefully I will get hubby to give me a good long massage.

I sure sound hopeful… I know… and it’s because I really am! I really hope “this is it” .. I know I will give it my all as usual! I will have to follow this plan of repeating cycles of phases 1,2 and 3 for 28 months and then… repeat as needed! 🙂

So… this morning (phase 3) I had -for breakfast-

– 2 whole eggs cooked in coconut oil and seasoned with sea salt and nutritional yeast.

– 3 slices of avocado

– 1 Ezekiel bread English muffin (half of it with almond butter the other half with coconut butter)

– 1 cup of blueberries

– 1 sauteed zucchini.

How do  I feel? Amazing! 🙂

The Thin Lady Inside

Trim Healthy Mama-ing

Hello everybody! I have been following the “Trim Healthy Mama” method (except for one meal where I ate chili and fri-tos!) and it feels good… although my weight hasn’t budged I feel like I am doing something right!

I have incorporated to my diet:

Nutritional Yeast

Stevia Sweetener (drops)

Chia Seeds (amazing super-power food!)

Half&Half/Heavy Whipping Cream

Lots of berries

Lots of veggies

Ezekiel Bread (sprouted bread)

Extra Virgin Coconut Oil (I’ve always loved it! I am glad to be back!)

Butter (plenty of it)

Greek (unsweetened and plain) yogurt (I get to sweeten it with Stevia and enjoy it with my berries!)

(rarely) Dreamfields Pasta – Low Glycemic Index

Brown Rice -in moderation (I’ve always liked it but I used to have the white rice more often)

Not very recommended by the program but “acceptable” I’ve been eating here and there some low-carb mission tortillas (3 Net grams per tortilla)

I have removed from my diet

All forms of sugar (Cane Sugar, Honeys, sweetened Jams, Jellies)

Coffee Creamer (I used to have Sugar Free Vanilla Creamer)

Regular breads that are not sprouted.

Potatoes (I can have 1/2 a sweet potato here and there but never white ones)

White rice (I will miss you THE MOST)

Corn or Corn products

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I still need to get:

“glucommanan” (although it is optional I am totally convinced I should get it for what I’ve read online about its benefits)

konjac noodles (I MUST get these but they’re SOOO expensive! They have great shrinking properties, they’re like a form of pasta but 0 calories! yes … ZERO CALORIES! They’re made from the konjac root! I just know that it’s a noodle and it actually helps you lose weight! I WANT IT!!!)

almond flour (I already got Flaxseed Meal) … There are some bread recipes I am looking to trying where I will need those.

I bought whey protein (sweetened with stevia) but I haven’t tried it yet

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I must eat whole foods and not care about calories (although I do) … I’m extremely motivated by the success stories in the group (including my friend’s -Margi- look at her progress here) And I can’t wait to have my own success story as well!

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I had an initial “bad experience” on the very first day of following the plan… and it was with the Stevia Sweetener … DISGUSTING (was the first thought that crossed my mind) … then I tried to follow one of their recipes for “cake in a mug” and the results were… beautiful looking but really unpleasant.. I thought “everyone was crazy” to eat this stuff! … In the “support groups” on FB I was told to “give it some time” until “all the sugar left my body” and my taste buds would actually (and magically) change! I couldn’t believe it and I didn’t want to BELIEVE IT… I kept my unhealthy Vanilla creamer (which has no sugar) because I thought “Splenda” (I don’t love it… but I thought it’s better than Stevia) would be my only choice… after 5 days of ZERO sugar I gave Stevia another try on my coffee and … it was … PERFECT! Delicious! Now with half&half and stevia drops! Could this be possible??? I tried my vanilla flavored stuff… and it was… too fake! That’s interesting! So I am happy that I am drinking a healthier cup of coffee every night with hubby! I still haven’t given “cake in a mug” another try… maybe some day!

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I feel more freedom when eating… I must say… and I love it that I do get to eat enough carbs! This is not a “low carb diet” … I do have to keep an eye on not going crazy with carbs… but I can eat up to 45 grams in a meal if I want to – when eating higher amounts of carbs I truly have to keep the fats at bay… when eating higher amounts of fats then I HAVE TO keep carbs to a minimum, the limit would be 10 grams per meal- I look forward to seeing results! Hopefully soon 🙂

The Thin Lady Inside

And then some more…

Hello friends! I read all of your comments to my previous post… thank you for supporting me on my highs and lows! You all rock!

So…. talking about highs (*rolling eyes*) turns out that when I weighed myself on Friday and was all bummed out (and wrote the previous post) I was tempted to eat a big thing of pasta with meat sauce I made… I decided I didn’t care anymore and then, when I served all that food on a plate… I realized it was stupid, crazy and senseless! So… if I gain one pound I am going to eat myself into oblivion just to make me gain more, feel horrible and get even further from my goal? NO!  I put the food away and ate none of it… felt awesome! Proud and happy for my decision! I went to bed pretty hungry I must say! LOL and then in the morning ran to the scale to weigh myself like if my “good action” could “magically” give me the results I expected and “miraculously” I would get the “reward” from it… So… imagine my “surprise” when I see the scale go up even HIGHER! I gained another 1.1 pounds… I blinked repeatedly like if I could make it all go away… like if somehow I could change things by blinking! When I stopped I actually laughed and carried on… didn’t let it bum me too much and it really helped that I went to church to focus on greater (and less carnal) things… At least this body is not eternal! 🙂 My spirit is… and lately I have been too concerned with what I eat or not eat… so much that I have been neglecting my spiritual feeding! I know that part of my obesity might be due to the stress I went through with my dad accompanied by the great amounts of food I ate while going through it… (horrible combination) and I know that I still have to watch what I eat, etc… but I need to quit letting it consume me because this “mindset” and emotional state will not help my weight loss efforts.

So… after church I went out for lunch and did great… I felt actually like some “weight” was lifted off of me… I came home, took a long nap and enjoyed the evening with my family afterwards… Today I weighed almost a pound less… and I laughed again… who cares? I keep doing this… I keep forgetting this is my lifestyle and there’s nothing that can bum me out enough to quit it!

Today I’ve been doing great and got out of my pj’s early! I was actually PUTTING ON my pj’s everyday after I showered! it was like my “outfit of choice” … I am making myself get into my jeans and look a bit better…

So… here I am … Thank you all for commenting!

The Thin Lady Inside

Got fruit?

Hello everybody! Here I am again… just to share quickly about my weight and emotional state LOL! 🙂 After getting off of my soap box and once I stopped feeling sorry for myself (which unfortunately has been happening too often lately) I decided to be totally honest with myself and realize that I did some bad changes in my eating that would definitely affect my weight! I am not a victim… I hate the whole victim position so I refuse to “stay there” … Yes, it is true that I don’t lose weight like most people would if they are determined to do it… I do have thyroid issues and I gain weight faster than most people regardless of the meds… but I CAN lose weight, even if VERY slowly. I started to remind myself that I was seeing more consistent results with my weight when I incorporated more fruit in my diet and got rid of “low calorie” but “very processed” foods… So I am going back to the basics and eating way more fruit…

Right now I am enjoying 1/4 cup of organic strawberry yogurt (love Stonyfield), 1 apple, raw pecans, grapes and a few craisins every morning! It is sooo yummy!!! It is not a lot of yogurt but it is sooo satisfying and creamy! I feel like I am eating a dessert… almost like it’s too good to be ok for me to eat! LOL! 🙂 I am going back to my baked sweet potatoes as well… rather than rice and/or pasta… so… I am excited and in two days I lost 1/2 a pound…. the first day back to being really disciplined with my food I must admit I felt REALLY HUNGRY! My body was just asking for more food.. and something greasier if possible! LOL! but today it hasn’t been so hard.

Friday will be “Social Friday” for our Church Lifegroup and they’re already talking “Restaurants” … I will be looking the menu in advance to make sure I make all the right choices and still have a great time with everyone.

The Thin Lady Inside