Exactly that!

Saw this on fb today… I thought it was painfully funny and true 🙂 ….

you are not a dog

Happy Monday everyone!

The Thin Lady Inside

 

 

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Because she believes me!

Hello everybody, here I am … today is day 9 of the Fast Metabolism Diet 28 day plan! This plan is supposed to heal your metabolism in about 28 days, some people have a slower metabolism than others, some have more or less weight to lose than others… so if by day 28 you’re “not done” you just start all over again… People have asked me “what made me try the Fast Metabolism Diet” and I always say “she believes me” … Allow me to explain: when I heard about this plan I thought I wouldn’t be able to do it because NO DAIRY is allowed… at all… no yogurt, butter, milk (except for rice/almond/coconut milks), kefir, sour cream, cheese, nothing! and I thought I for sure would never even try something that would separate me and dairy! Nothing could ever come between us! NOTHING! but… as I continued to read the book I found something that Haily Pomroy (author of the FMD) said that touched the very depths of my soul … she said: “I believe you!” … She says in her book that some of her customers come to her tired of dieting, skeptic to try something “new” or “opposing what they’ve learned in other diets” etc… and they tell her in frustration how they have REALLY ADHERED to other strict eating plans without any good results… and she says that she believes them … and then she talked to me, the reader, and said: “I believe you! I believe that you have done it, I believe that you have counted calories, I believe that you have only eaten protein or carbs, or whatever the diets required of you” (paraphrasing) I BELIEVE YOU! And it’s been so long since I last felt someone “believed me” … even when trying THM (Trim Healthy Mama, which I love) when I would come up to the wonderful groups where everyone is really, sincerely supportive and nice… I found that people would say “well, maybe you’re not doing this or that, well, maybe you are doing something wrong, maybe you’re eating too much of something, etc” … when I would go to doctors when I was eating low calories and exercising a lot they looked at me and smiled in disbelief and said “well eat less and exercise more!” … and for the first time… I found someone who said… “I believe you!” … Haylie doesn’t know me… personally (obviously) … but she knows I (and many others like me) exist! and she knows I (we) have really tried! she believes it… but there’s something else why diets don’t work even when test results come back from the doctor’s office saying that everything is “apparently normal” … So… because she believed me… I believe her! And I will do this as well… with everything I have! Sometimes I have doubts while doing this program… but I mostly doubt myself… Am I eating too much? And I go back to my meal maps that she put together… and I trust it and “Let it go” …. I weighed myself yesterday and I lost 2 pounds on my first week.. it’s not a lot but I am not stressing out… I am truly letting go and doing this thing! Hopefully my metabolism will get it!

The Thin (and hopeful) Lady Inside

Take 1839 … GO!

Hello everybody! I think I should’ve been named “Caleb” … unfortunately that is a boy’s name… but Caleb means: “Dog that won’t let go” … “stubborn” … but kind of a “good stubbornness” well… I am the good and bad kind of stubborn I guess… So I am here trying another “new thing” … see… I am sticking with losing weight! As you know I did try Trim Healthy Mama… and I still love that plan! I think it is great for many and I’ve seen people solve a whole lot of issues with that plan… and me and my family loved all the ingredients and how all of this super-foods have made us feel… But… I had to realize that even when it was a great thing for many… it was not going to be the thing that helps ME, individually, lose weight! I gave it a good try, I think I was on it for about 4 months, even for Easter I stuck to it… part of my silence here on my blog was 1. I didn’t have anything new to say! 2. I was so certain this would work that I wanted wait to make a big “come back” and show you the “new me” or at least a big improvement! But no! Nothing! Even for Easter I stayed on plan! I didn’t touch any sugar! By now you know me… and when I say “I am doing this” I am doing it! Even when I recently quit my very early morning walks I still continued to exercise in the evenings and still seeing no results! So… I continued to read about it all! And I came to a few conclusions.

1. Trim Healthy Mama Plan is one that encourages, promotes and even requires great amounts of healthy (really healthy) fats (both animal and vegetable fats).

2. I do not have a gall bladder and my metabolism is really slow so I am not sure if eating lots of fats is the best for me… at least not the way I was doing it.

3. I realize that Pearl and Serene (the authors of the THM book) have the best intentions and a lot (A LOT!) of knowledge that serve to help most people… and it’s a healthier thing for most people as well. I love the THM so much that I plan on going back to it once I reach my weight loss goal, with new found knowledge and trying to stay cautious and not as liberal with the amounts of fats I eat but I also realize that they do not have a background in medicine any PHD kind of thing, etc… to know how maybe a few people would probably even be hurt by the genera idea behind the use of fats in THM. (Not that they are not knowledgeable with lots of great stuff, way more than many doctors who won’t care about healthy eating and would just give you pills to lose weight! I am not trying to say anything bad about them!)

4. Reading about it all… I found the “Fast Metabolism Diet” and I have Devoured it, really studied, etc… lots of the concepts and ingredients are just like TRIM HEALTHY MAMA but in many ways there’s way more balance here… The focus (as I read) in the Fast Metabolism Diet is to HEAL your metabolic system … and lose weight as a result! To do so… you have to stick to this plan (STRICTLY) for 28 days (no changes, deviation, adaptations, not at all!) and you teach your body to “remove the stress” that most “weight loss” programs cause to it! You even treat it to a couple days of HIGH (healthy, no wheat/corn/white potatoes) CARBS and NATURAL SUGARS (fruit) each week so the cortisol levels go down! She even emphasizes the vital importance of not getting all stressed out about weight/scale, etc… because she says that your metabolism suffers ENORMOUSLY, slows down even more, stores more fat, etc… with feelings of stress, guilt, etc… And… this lady (Haylie Pomroy)  seems to know a lot about gall bladder issues and the IMPORTANCE of chewing a lot and eating certain things (spices, cilantro, parsley, etc.) to help your body break down the fats when you don’t have a gall bladder because you could actually hurt your liver/pancreas by making them over-work with fats (yes, great fats but still fats) when there is no gall bladder to take part of the “weight” and work-load. In the book you also find the kind of exercises you should do depending on the food you’re eating etc… (high carb days = cardio, high protein days = strength training, higher fat days = massages, relaxation, etc.)

So… after reading/re-reading this book, breaking it down, making notes, researching by myself, etc… I realize that it’s worth a try… I will be letting you know each day how it goes… My first day is today… and I am on Phase 1 (you go through 3 phases each week) and for breakfast I had a generous bowl of oatmeal with blueberries and a cup of mango! Not bad! 🙂 I will be eating in 3 hours again and it will be another fruit… Ah! The sweetness of the fruit which I had never appreciated is greatly welcome right now!

Before today I decided I would splurge during the weekend… It had been a long time since I last ate all the wrong stuff! LOL! I actually couldn’t make myself even take a sip of a soda though… the mere thought of the syrupy drink made me gag! I had pizza from Domino’s on Saturday and it was amazing! (I had last eaten “real pizza” in June 2013) I know I didn’t need to do that but why not? I must say I am very proud that I can at least say that I didn’t lose weight because things just HAVEN’T WORKED for me… rather than because I didn’t really try my best! It was nice to eat with my friends at a restaurant during the weekend and enjoy a cheeseburger and fries! My friend even took a picture of me! She said she couldn’t believe it! and that it was nice to see me not stressed out about calories, ingredients, etc… So… I enjoyed my weekend! I plan on enjoying the next 28 days of metabolic healing… and then maybe, if this works, another 28 days and as many times as necessary to lose all this extra weight and then continue my healthy living with a new approach towards food and less stressed about it all!

So… there you have it… Wish me luck!

The Slow Lady Inside!

Feeling lighter …. is it my imagination?

Hello everybody! So… today is a great day! I am feeling lighter and I’ve been sleeping better… I am definitely not going through “hot flashes” at night anymore… I knew it was the high calorie diet I had during the holidays that was making me feel like “I was on fire” … I’m back to normal with my body temperature and even whatever stomach issue caused by overeating or eating junk I get is gone! Since my gallbladder was removed I really shouldn’t eat much flours/greasy stuff or spicy… when I do I give myself “IBS” kind of symptoms… I am telling you … IT IS BAD! Even makes me wonder “why in the world I do that to myself” and then I ask for another soda! LOL! … But… now that I am back to my healthy eating/exercising… all of those symptoms are gone and I am better! Plus… walking with my friend every morning is a TRUE blessing! we talk, cry, laugh and hug all in one hour! I mean… we mean business… we are walking really briskly and if/when I run I am still focused on my heart rate, etc… but… we truly take advantage of that hour and get all of our stuff out there! LOL! It’s like therapy!

Today… after our walk… I truly felt “lighter” I came home so excited, actually looking forward to see the number on the scale… but it didn’t move… I am still the same weight I was a week ago (when I started to watch what I eat) … and as you know… I even gained weight “in between” these days… but… I am just happy I am feeling lighter and I don’t think it is my imagination… my jeans feel better too… of course I haven’t washed them yet (LOL) but I put them on just to go to the grocery store (next door) and they did feel different (not only “I’ve worn them many times already” different, but … different) So… I am excited and looking forward to continue moving in the right direction.

The Thin Lady Inside

Got fruit?

Hello everybody! Here I am again… just to share quickly about my weight and emotional state LOL! 🙂 After getting off of my soap box and once I stopped feeling sorry for myself (which unfortunately has been happening too often lately) I decided to be totally honest with myself and realize that I did some bad changes in my eating that would definitely affect my weight! I am not a victim… I hate the whole victim position so I refuse to “stay there” … Yes, it is true that I don’t lose weight like most people would if they are determined to do it… I do have thyroid issues and I gain weight faster than most people regardless of the meds… but I CAN lose weight, even if VERY slowly. I started to remind myself that I was seeing more consistent results with my weight when I incorporated more fruit in my diet and got rid of “low calorie” but “very processed” foods… So I am going back to the basics and eating way more fruit…

Right now I am enjoying 1/4 cup of organic strawberry yogurt (love Stonyfield), 1 apple, raw pecans, grapes and a few craisins every morning! It is sooo yummy!!! It is not a lot of yogurt but it is sooo satisfying and creamy! I feel like I am eating a dessert… almost like it’s too good to be ok for me to eat! LOL! 🙂 I am going back to my baked sweet potatoes as well… rather than rice and/or pasta… so… I am excited and in two days I lost 1/2 a pound…. the first day back to being really disciplined with my food I must admit I felt REALLY HUNGRY! My body was just asking for more food.. and something greasier if possible! LOL! but today it hasn’t been so hard.

Friday will be “Social Friday” for our Church Lifegroup and they’re already talking “Restaurants” … I will be looking the menu in advance to make sure I make all the right choices and still have a great time with everyone.

The Thin Lady Inside

Got in my jeans and I’m going to the movies

Hello everybody… this is going to be a different post from my earlier one… If you’ve been reading you know that we’ve been sick, sick, sick… it pretty much started in September on our trip to Wisconsin, I came back sick as a dog… (that’s a funny American expression in my mind… is it a bad one? You’ll have to correct me if it is… I just use the expressions I hear… LOL! “sick as a dog” is a funny one… just like “pig in a blanket” as a breakfast item … when I was asked to bring “pigs in blankets” to a breakfast potluck in church I thought “wow, American people eat weird stuff! and they complain about us, Mexicans!” and then I pictured myself chasing a bunch of pigs trying to wrap them with blankets…  LOL)  Ok… that was a long parenthesis … I am a little random right now… too much caffeine? Maybe!

Anyway… So … I got sick in September, really sick… then hubby followed in October, then my oldest one, then my little one (bad ear infections, poor thing! Fever up to 104.5! Scary!) then I got sick, bad cold, then my little one got sick again, respiratory flu and then I got it… and that takes us to today… today I finally felt better except for some remaining congestion everything else was fine… I went grocery shopping but didn’t even shower… I was feeling totally in the dumps and terrified to even try to get dressed in “normal clothes” KNOWING in my mind I wouldn’t fit in there … not by any chance! So… my “dress style” kept getting worse and worse… raggedy clothes that I am embarrassed to admit I still keep… stained with bleach and all… that’s what I was wearing today… I was just feeling disgusted about myself… then, looking at myself in the mirror with my frizzy hair pointing at all directions, unplucked eyebrows and with red spots around my nose from blowing so often for so long… well… I still wonder how hubby still kissed me good bye every morning… (talk about being married to a godly man!) … But … I knew I was healthy enough to go to the store, so I did… praying to God that I wouldn’t see anybody who knew me and at the same time realizing they would probably not recognize me anyway. Then… I realized tonight is the Premiere for “Catching Fire” (the Hunger Games movie) and my ticket had already been bought a few days (weeks?) ago by my best friend… she called me to ask me if I am ok to go and I said yes (wondering if I could reverse some of the visible damage done to my image out of total neglect and abandonment!) So… just an hour ago I took a long shower, did everything needed to come back to the world where people change their clothes and brush their hair… And then… I started to look for my skinny jeans… even the name terrifies me… I remember buying them knowing that at least I am narrow and have long thin legs and we have to take advantage of our “better” attributes … so… I started to put them on… ready to start fighting, puffing, huffing and sweating… to finally cry in total devastation… But that didn’t happen… I just put them on like usual… I did my hair… my make up and I look… pretty! If I may say so myself! I even smiled like saying “hi! Where were you? I missed you” when I looked in the mirror. And I realize that I still have a long way to go with the way I see myself… with the way my brain makes me see myself… in my mind I was back to 223 pounds all over again… In my mind I had crossed a point of “no return”… In my mind I was the insecure, obese and LOST woman all over again… but I am not that… and I am not planning on getting there… I am wearing my skinny jeans and going to the movies… This was a great wake up call though… I felt strong and like “I got this” just recently… how could I get so far down in just a matter of days? I can’t be over confident… I have to be always watching it to identify the destructive behaviors that have damaged so much in the past.

So… I am going to the movies, the premiere is at midnight and I can’t wait. I look pretty, so pretty that I will pass on the popcorn and the soda. I deserve better.

I am the Thin Lady Inside.