It is happening!

Hello everybody! How are you doing? I am thrilled to announce that struggling and all I’ve lost 10 pounds since I went and visited that horrible Natural Health Center in April…. I remember that as “the date” because it was a very low point in my journey… you can read about it here … If you’ve been following my blog then you know I started at 222.8ย  pounds (2 and a half years ago)… reached172.8 (50 pounds less) after a few months and then I didn’t seem to be able to go any lower… then it turns out I gained a lot of weight for what seems hormones/stress issues (December 2013) and then in April this year I found out I was 194 pounds!! horrible! I gained 22 pounds back! but Friday I weighed myself and even when I haven’t seen my weight go “dramatically down” I saw the number and it was 184 and that’s when it actually hit me! Yes… I am still heavier than what I had already reached… BUT… I HAVE LOST 10 POUNDS in about 5-6 weeks which is pretty good!!! Yes I’ve struggled but I am just happy to see some changes! I continue to not weigh everyday and I am happy I am at peace with it but it for sure was a nice surprise to see that!

I continue to do great and I am back to running in the mornings (just not as early and just making sure I eat something -a snack- before I run) … It’s harder to run but my friend and I are doing it and we’re planning on doing another 5k in September… today we went for 3.45 miles but ran only 1.3 miles out of those… Feeling good though!

Saturday I walked/ran in the morning and then it was an active day picking blueberries with my family… it’s been quite active around here in the pool and doing fun activities like that… I am sure that also helps reduce any stress/cortisol levels and in consequence aids my weight loss! Yeah! WIN/WIN!

Have a great week everyone!

The Thin Lady Inside

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I can’t wash my jeans!

Well, here I am… My “New Year Resolution” of not spending so much time on the computer is going great… I think I am even getting uninterested! I never thought I would say that! I am having fun staying busy with my girlies!

So… today… I said good-bye to obesity (again) … as I said… it was just a brief, very brief visit (thankfully) … I am still standing at the very door of obesity’s home though… I lost only about 7 ounces… so… I even joked around with hubby after he excitedly congratulated me for being “overweight” again… and I said: “oh yeah? well… look at me get back to being obese” -and chugged down a cup of water- LOL! … yes… a cup of water or eating an apple could put me back to obesity in a blink! because 7 ounces it’s not that much… but it’s progress!

Even when I am not “obese” anymore (according to WiiFit) I still can’t wash my jeans! I mean… if I wash them… I won’t be able to get in them… I need them nice and loosened for a few more days… they still get super tight on the waist… and I get a beautiful looking muffin top! -oy-

Anyway… Just wanted to report that it’s all going well here… exercising and counting calories … Today my calorie intake was about 1400 so I am very proud!

That’s it for now…

The Thin Lady Inside

Kings Day and a cold front

Hello everybody! I am hun-gry! Soooo hungry! I am craving all kinds of stuff… so as I type I am waiting for my cup of coffee to be ready and I’ll be toasting some low calorie bread that I’ll have with some Reduced Sugar Jelly on top! ๐Ÿ™‚ YUM!

Anyway… Today was my first official day to exercise… and I say “first” just because it’s the first day of the year that I actually went out for my usual morning walk with my friend… who… finally came back last night! I sooo missed her! And I was excited when she confirmed we would walk this morning… but then… I must admit that when I heard last night about the “cold front” that would hit us and how the temperatures would drop I was tempted to back out of it! But you all… yes… you all kept me encouraged! Your comments, the posts I’ve read of those of you who run when it’s icy cold and who have even fallen on the ice… well.. all of those things were on my mind and I realized I had no excuse! Even when hubby made it all worse by saying “you probably shouldn’t go! It will be too cold!” Still… I bravely got out… it was 28 degrees which is a lot for Texas! Thankfully it was not humid! I must say it feels way worse when it’s 38 and humid than 28 and dry! I was all bundled up and met my friend at “our usual place” we were happy to see each other again! I thought I would see more people walking… you know? with the whole “New Year Resolutions” thing? But no… I guess in days like this is when you separate those that are really determined from those who aren’t… because seriously…. NO EXCUSES! Now… I am not judging those who stayed in bed… or saying that they will not be able to do it “tomorrow” or some other day… I’ve been “there” so many times… I’ve been the one to stay in bed rather than exercise …well… too many times (and not too long ago!) but I feel like “rough days” and “hard moments” are a great opportunity that shouldn’t be wasted… they are amazing will power boosters, when you don’t go out and exercise on a day like this just because you didn’t feel like it (I’m not talking about serious stuff, but … more like “it was too cold” stuff) you lose the chance to prove to yourself how strong you are, how important this really is, how serious you are about it… and you also miss the great “after the fact” feeling of accomplishment and pride… hey… I am saying all this to myself… remember? I am just writing my journey yes… to share with others but more importantly to have these memories STAY somewhere so I can go back to moments like this and use it as reminders when my strength is lacking! (maybe tomorrow… because it will be even colder!)

{{{ YUM, Coffee and toast with jelly are ready! I’m enjoying and feeling much better now! }}}

So… today is also “Kings Day” .. in Mexico we celebrate this day with a “Rosca” (King Cake) … This traditional bread is not that good… sorry! At least I am not a big fan of it. LOL! It looks interesting but it’s not “a big deal” not too sweet, not savory, it’s some very simple pastry… decorated with some candied fruit and the “big deal” about this cake is that it traditionally carries “little plastic babies” inside… (about 5, depending on the size of the cake), usually many people gather, from different families… or at work (I remember eating it at work with peers, etc.) and whoever gets the first baby is in charge of making “tamales” for a party to celebrate Candlemass on February 2. This is mostly a “Roman Catholic” tradition… which I am not… but in Mexico more than celebrating it as a “Catholic Religious Thing” it has become more of a cultural thing where people get together, eat bread and organize yet another party to keep eating! LOL! So… the first person to get a baby is in charge of the tamales, whoever else gets “babies” has to cooperate to organize the party, in the end everybody just “pitches in” … it is fun!

So… in Mexico (especially Central and South areas of Mexico) children receive gifts today on January 6th … and it’s the “Three Kings” who bring the gifts for the children (not Santa Claus) … my girls… are spoiled.. and get to have gifts on Christmas (because of my gringo) and they will be receiving gifts later today (it was supposed to be in the morning but since it’s not an official Holiday and daddy had to leave early for work, we’ll be doing it tonight). We’ll have a family over (my friend that I run with and her family) for some hot cocoa/coffee/King Cake and we’ll enjoy the King Cake… Well… they will…. I will pass.

Usually, most people buy a big rosca already made… I actually get to have fun making my own… I made two (if there’s leftover hubby will get to share at work!)… Today is also the last day to have any Christmas decorations… and I am looking forward to removing the “left-overs” ๐Ÿ™‚

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I didn’t include the “plastic babies” to avoid any choking hazard.

Happy Kings Day!

The Thin Lady Inside

Ice Cream Makes me hot

Hello everybody… well, here I am…. taking steps on my road to recovery… I feel like an addict that fell again and I am starting to count my days of renewed sobriety! It is hard though… I hate how quick the body gets used to “eating more/eating junk” Yesterday I still ate more calories than I had planned … I was just incredibly hungry all day… but at least I never gave in to the temptation of just “eat it all” but actually held myself together and would just try to kill the cravings with something healthy… I love the combination of fruit, strawberry yogurt, craisins and nuts… so I had that as “dessert” at the end of the day…

Today I weighed myself and it turns out that I weigh even more… so… let’s talk numbers even when I have refused to… I have to face it … I am now 186.5 pounds …. it feels horrible to see/say that number when I had already reached 172.3 pounds … but I am not going to “dwell in the past” or in the “could’ve, would’ve, should’ve-s” and I’ll just continue to move on towards my goal. My goal for this month is to lose 10 pounds… we’ll see how that goes.

Something that is making it easier for me to go back to the good “path” is the fact that I am having trouble sleeping at night… the extra weight and having been eating so many high calorie foods makes me very uncomfortable and … hot! It’s like I am experiencing hot flashes! It is horrible… I find myself covering with a thin blanket in the night and keeping the fan (actually 2 fans) on at night because I get incredibly hot… and then I uncover myself completely because I am hot like a furnace… Then I fall asleep and get cold again so I cover myself and it turns out that just from the movement of covering myself I feel like this rush of flames from hell invade me from head to toes and I am burning again… This has been going on for about the last month… and I know it’s the weight increase and all the calories I’ve been eating that I don’t need! My last super high calorie food was 2 nights ago, when hubby, the girls and I went out for ice cream… we went to “Cold Stone” and I had a big thing of Dark Chocolate/Cheesecake Ice cream with toasted almonds! That night was near to impossible for me to sleep! So… my sleep deprivation and constant being “hot” while my family complains that the apartment is too cold and hubby would love to move out to another room because he can’t stand my fans at night… all that combined is definitely motivating me to go back to eating better/less and exercise again.

Today… will be another good day… an even better day than yesterday as I continue to bring my calorie intake down to the 1250-1400 range.

Before I stop writing though I would like to show off the cake I made for my littlest one… she turned 3 on December 29th and I made an “all strawberry” cake for her… no flavorings, no jell-o… all the strawberry flavor both in the cake and frosting came from real strawberries ๐Ÿ™‚ it’s my first strawberry cake and she loved it! (unfortunately I loved it too and I ate all the leftover cream cheese/strawberry frosting by the spoonful)

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The Thin Lady Inside

Merry Christmas and Happy New Year

Hello everybody… I am back… we were on vacation, we went to South Padre Island and stayed there 4 days / 3 nights and spent Christmas with my family… I’ve been eating like there’s no tomorrow… just enjoying that hubby is on vacation, celebrating that my dad is fine, relaxing by the beach, soaking in the love of my brother, sister, mom and dad, baking and thanking God for giving my littlest one another year of life… and I’ve gained a total of 10 pounds (these pounds I’ve gained in the last couple of months) … I finally faced the scale and I am not feeling “too bad about it” … January 1st. will be my day to start a whole clean page, write a new chapter and re-start with renewed hopes and expectations…

I am so blessed… to be able to celebrate these days when they could’ve been filled with tears and pain if my dad hadn’t made it… he was so close to dying and our days together were just filled with joy and gratefulness… nothing could ruin that… Here is a picture of all of us together

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So… for 2014 I have just a few resolutions… I want to…

– Reach 150 pounds

– Spend more time reading my Bible/Praying

– Spend less time online

– Focus on my girls homeschooling

And that’s it… seems like little but it’s a lot… I want to focus on the things that matter and savor each day… not through food… but through it all… ๐Ÿ™‚

Oh! I almost forgot… for Christmas I got my Fitbit Flex Tracker… it tracks my steps, sleep and calories… it’s pretty cool! ๐Ÿ™‚ Hubby rocks!

Love you all and I hope you all had a very Merry Christmas and that 2014 will be a great, happy, healthy year filled of success!

Blessings!

The Thin Lady Inside

Back from Mexico…

Hello everybody… so… I did have to end up going to Mexico… My dad’s condition was way worse than we originally thought… he actually had a massive heart attack. The doctors can’t explain yet how he made it for 2 days without medical attention, when he got to the hospital he had over 3000 units of some enzymes produced by the body when the heart fails… I am sorry if I can’t explain things right… it’s all a blur… but the doctors said something like: “when a person has over 300-400 units it is considered a heart attack, your dad has over 3000 units”… so we rushed to Mexico but I wasn’t allowed to see him… he couldn’t have any emotions… nor good or bad. At least I was a support for my mom and siblings in the scariest hours.. the first 72 hours were crucial, he was in the ICU and he made it… the doctor says he is still not out of danger and they continue to administer medication to keep him from having a thrombosis, he is now in a normal room and he started asking last night about me and if I could go see him… he doesn’t have any clue I just returned last night from being just a few steps away from him all weekend. Now my mom is afraid to tell him I was there and wasn’t allowed to see him… so he won’t know… it makes me sad he probably wonders why I am not there!?

Anyway… I just hope his recovery is complete…. and I obviously didn’t have much opportunity to count calories while there… but did have the opportunity to eat things that I love and I hadn’t eaten for 7 years! Things right there in my country… that can’t be fully replicated in the USA…

"Pollo Feliz"

“Pollo Feliz”

My favorite Grilled chicken "Pollo Feliz" with tortillas, guacamole and blanched/seasoned red onions.

My favorite Grilled chicken “Pollo Feliz” with tortillas, guacamole and blanched/seasoned red onions.

"Tamal Sinaloense"

“Tamal Sinaloense”

Regardless of my not counting calories and letting myself enjoy some Mexican food I must say I still stayed away from my very favorite street tacos and soda… and from many other succulent dishes… I must say I am happy I am not there anymore because it would be near to impossible to lose weight with all those options… Ah! Can’t resist Mexican dishes!!! and my favorite ones are not that healthy! Although I know I still lost weight when I used to live there… you can always adapt every dish to make it a healthier/lighter version… (it still isn’t the same though!)

So… thankfully my dad is getting better and thankfully I am now away from all that food… or it would be likely I’d end up in a hospital just like him.

The Thin and very Mexican Lady Inside

 

The heart attack…

There’s not much mystery here… I wish the title of this post was “figuratively speaking” or just “an expression” or just an exaggerationย  but it is not… and I thought it would be good for me to post this here since it has to do with health issues and lack of a proper diet and exercise…

I got a phone call at midnight and hubby told me the number was a Mexican number… I rushed to try and dial back but just dialed a wrong number… I was more asleep than awake and I apologized to the poor guy who I woke up with my phone call… hung up and dialed again, ever so slowly, with my foggy brain due to sleepiness and worry… why did someone from my family in Mexico call? Why that late? I hope everyone is ok… and then …

Ring, ring

my sister: “Hello”

Me: “You called? what’s going on”

my sister (sounding worried): “uh, well… sorry for calling so late, um, something happened, there was a little incident with dad… um… he is in the hospital………”

Me (listening to my heart and afraid to ask more and anxious to hear more at the same time): “WHAT HAPPENED?”

My sister: “Well, he had pain on his chest and we thought we should take him to the doctor, he kept saying no but we got really worried, when we got there the doctors did an Electrocardiogram and they said he had a heart attack, but the worst was two days ago, he just hadn’t said anything”

Me: “what??? how?”

My sister: “I don’t have more details, I guess they’ll give us more information during the day, we just know that this heart attack actually started two days ago… he just didn’t say anything, but he is more stable now”

after that we just talked a little bit more … I was foggy wondering if he’d be fine, thanking God this didn’t happen while he was on his own when my sister and mom were here for a few days for Thanksgiving… I know he would’ve just slept through it … and maybe wouldn’t have woke up…

The thought terrified me… The thought of losing him… wondering if the last time I saw him, in July, was the last time I saw him… I talk with him often on the phone but… when I saw him… did I hug him enough? did I show him my love enough? I just love that man! I am a daddy’s girl! I am angry with him for not taking care of himself… He was sick about two years ago and they said his heart was enlarged… high blood pressure was a big concern as well and he only seemed concerned about his food and exercised for a few weeks after being released from the hospital, he promised he’d take care of himself… until the “scare” became another memory and “feeling good” seemed like “permission to eat anything he wants” … I remember when I lived in Mexico, my dad and I were partners in crime many times… eating tacos from the street before getting home just to eat dinner AGAIN … stopping at gas stations for a big, cold soda and chips and laughing about our “sneakiness” … it doesn’t seem that funny anymore… and I do love all our memories, we’re both very similar… witty, funny, sarcastic and at times irreverent… there’s a comedian inside him… and I know there’s one inside of me too (hey maybe that’s why I am fat… there’s a thin lady inside of me AND a comedian!) … I understand HIM… and he “gets me” as well.. we laugh a lot… and we’re both impersonators… but… overeating is an addiction, obesity is one of the side effects! This is not something to laugh about (even if I am too used to making jokes about it!!)… obesity and its consequences are serious… this is not funny! … Fat people are the “stars” from many jokes, comedies, tv shows… but it’s not a happy (or long) life… not for the obese person or for their loved ones. Overeating is an addiction and eating junk is a selfish/destructive behavior with many victims! My dad is not necessarily obese…. he is overweight… but even thin people who don’t watch what they eat are going to pay the consequences of their unhealthy lifestyle… My dad is 64 and should be healthier than this. I love him and I hope he’ll be all better soon!

Pray that my dad will be better… and that he will have another chance to take care of himself.

The Thin Lady Inside