I never give up…

Hello peeps, if there’s anybody still around… or if anybody stops by and realizes that there was a long, long time since I last posted and that my last few posts were all about my struggle to find out the reasons why I didn’t seem to be able to lose weight… Just in case anybody wondered what happened to the lady who was looking for the thin-lady-inside of her… I am still here… I just want you to know that no matter what… no matter the struggles… I just DON’T GIVE UP! That’s right! … And while my weight kept slowly (and sometimes not so slowly) but surely creeping up… I never quit my battle against obesity… and while I did reach the 200’s again I didn’t gain all my weight back….

My last resort has been to invest in an expensive gym membership (which included 5 sessions with a fitness trainer and some blood work)

The blood work said what I already knew… Everything looks amazing in paper! They can tell I eat healthy and I exercise because the glucose is spot on, ideal numbers for triglycerides, HDL cholesterol, LDL cholesterol, blood pressure EVERYTHING! … They did a cardio test and they also were able to prove that I wasn’t lying when I said I exercise every day! They got me on the elliptical and it did nothing! High resistance and incline and I was feeling like I was sitting on a couch! My hear rate was so stable and not spiking… I could talk through the whole test… it was… GREAT! The trainer said: Wow, you really are strong… and I even told him when everything was done: “Sorry, I just have to ask… am I the healthiest fat person you’ve ever helped?” I could tell he was afraid to answer … Poor guy! but he finally said: “I am going to have to say yes to that!” LOL… So he started explaining to me that my body had just simply adapted to EVERYTHING I DO… Yes… everything! Including the 10 mile walks, the eating healthy, everything! And when the discouragement came and I did eat out of my normal, healthy stuff… of course I saw even an increase… and that was doing it! So what am I doing now?

  1. Weight Lifting… I had never tried that and the trainer highly recommended it (plus I’ve always had the goal of looking somewhat like a bodybuilder… I know… it might seem crazy… but I really reach for that!)
  2. Switching things around more both with the food and the exercise… in regards to food I am sticking to strictly healthy stuff, avoiding grains but not excluding them, continuing to live a “sugar free lifestyle”, and sticking to what I already used to do of no artificial junk and stuff like that… BUT now I am just making sure that I am not always “eating the same” everyday… adding more fish to my diet and like my trainer said: “When things stop working, change things up a bit”
  3. I am not focusing on the scale…. After 2 weeks of all the training and sticking to my healthy food… I felt stronger yet the scale said I had lost only 2 pounds (what!? I am still walking 10 miles, plus 1 hour of cardio and 1 hour of weights! How can that be?) well… looking deeper into it… and with the right equipment… ALL THE OTHER NUMBERS told a more encouraging story… I had lost 7.5 pounds of fat during those 2 weeks… yet gained 4.5 pounds of lean mass… AMAZING! Had I not known those details I know I would’ve let the 2 pounds be very discouraging! All that work for NOTHING??? BUT …. Now I know I have to REALLY trust other things more than the number on the scale… How do I feel? Am I getting stronger? How do the clothes feel? Etc… and I can’t let the scale ruin all those other tangible victories!
  4. Resting… With this I am still struggling… I have to trust what the trainer said about letting my body rest… I get this weird anxiety if I relax… I feel like I can’t sit or not train for a day because I will get huge… like… on that day! and this takes me to the next point…
  5. Training my mind as well… I am learning a lot about neuroplasticity… which is basically how our thinking affects our brains and our bodies… it might sound like it’s not something serious but being healthy involves our minds too… I have to change the way I think about myself… and even quit the negative thoughts that tell me “I’ll never get to accomplish something” and learn to relax, enjoy and not obsess.

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So … there you see me in the blurry picture above… I have those bands in my legs, I walk sideways with those and it is a great strength exercise for my legs (hips and thighs I think) … I am having a lot of fun and loving seeing results in my body… Hopefully my experience encourages you! I never quit… I just don’t… Find what works for you! I hope I can give you a great update soon!

The Thin Lady Inside

It is happening!

Hello everybody! How are you doing? I am thrilled to announce that struggling and all I’ve lost 10 pounds since I went and visited that horrible Natural Health Center in April…. I remember that as “the date” because it was a very low point in my journey… you can read about it here … If you’ve been following my blog then you know I started at 222.8  pounds (2 and a half years ago)… reached172.8 (50 pounds less) after a few months and then I didn’t seem to be able to go any lower… then it turns out I gained a lot of weight for what seems hormones/stress issues (December 2013) and then in April this year I found out I was 194 pounds!! horrible! I gained 22 pounds back! but Friday I weighed myself and even when I haven’t seen my weight go “dramatically down” I saw the number and it was 184 and that’s when it actually hit me! Yes… I am still heavier than what I had already reached… BUT… I HAVE LOST 10 POUNDS in about 5-6 weeks which is pretty good!!! Yes I’ve struggled but I am just happy to see some changes! I continue to not weigh everyday and I am happy I am at peace with it but it for sure was a nice surprise to see that!

I continue to do great and I am back to running in the mornings (just not as early and just making sure I eat something -a snack- before I run) … It’s harder to run but my friend and I are doing it and we’re planning on doing another 5k in September… today we went for 3.45 miles but ran only 1.3 miles out of those… Feeling good though!

Saturday I walked/ran in the morning and then it was an active day picking blueberries with my family… it’s been quite active around here in the pool and doing fun activities like that… I am sure that also helps reduce any stress/cortisol levels and in consequence aids my weight loss! Yeah! WIN/WIN!

Have a great week everyone!

The Thin Lady Inside

I am a sore loser!

Hello everyone! Here I am … first let me wish you all a “Happy Valentine’s Day” … I am still thinking about healthy treats I can make for hubby so we can enjoy them together… I ordered my 100%birch (USA made) Xylitol yesterday on amazon… (xylitol is a natural sweetener that is plan approved and does not affect your glycemic index, there are two kinds… corn based which is GMO and birch which is good and the one that we will be using) so… anyway… I ordered it and I will be getting it in about 5-8 days… so… obviously I can’t use it to bake… Stevia has too much of a weird (and very bitter) aftertaste for me especially when baking so … I can’t think of anything else to make! We’ll see.

So… yes… I am a sore loser… it turns out that yesterday I got back on my rowing machine… it had been abandoned for a long time and yesterday started back at it… I could only manage 5 minutes! (INCREDIBLE! ONLY 5! I was up to 1 hour before!) but at least I am doing it again… I am soooo sore from just 5 minutes of rowing! This morning I hesitantly weighed myself just because I am weighing every week… I lost 3.1 pounds! it is awesome! I am so excited about it! Thank God!!! I hope everything will continue to go in the right direction… as you know I have gained almost 20 pounds of the 50 I had originally lost… I was sad to have reached 190 pounds again… and today I am 187! It’s a lot but I am going down… so I am happy to be a loser! AGAIN! I can keep losing like this every week! LOL! 🙂

So that’s it… I just wanted to share that with you… have to go because my breakfast is waiting for me!

The Thin Lady Inside

Feeling lighter …. is it my imagination?

Hello everybody! So… today is a great day! I am feeling lighter and I’ve been sleeping better… I am definitely not going through “hot flashes” at night anymore… I knew it was the high calorie diet I had during the holidays that was making me feel like “I was on fire” … I’m back to normal with my body temperature and even whatever stomach issue caused by overeating or eating junk I get is gone! Since my gallbladder was removed I really shouldn’t eat much flours/greasy stuff or spicy… when I do I give myself “IBS” kind of symptoms… I am telling you … IT IS BAD! Even makes me wonder “why in the world I do that to myself” and then I ask for another soda! LOL! … But… now that I am back to my healthy eating/exercising… all of those symptoms are gone and I am better! Plus… walking with my friend every morning is a TRUE blessing! we talk, cry, laugh and hug all in one hour! I mean… we mean business… we are walking really briskly and if/when I run I am still focused on my heart rate, etc… but… we truly take advantage of that hour and get all of our stuff out there! LOL! It’s like therapy!

Today… after our walk… I truly felt “lighter” I came home so excited, actually looking forward to see the number on the scale… but it didn’t move… I am still the same weight I was a week ago (when I started to watch what I eat) … and as you know… I even gained weight “in between” these days… but… I am just happy I am feeling lighter and I don’t think it is my imagination… my jeans feel better too… of course I haven’t washed them yet (LOL) but I put them on just to go to the grocery store (next door) and they did feel different (not only “I’ve worn them many times already” different, but … different) So… I am excited and looking forward to continue moving in the right direction.

The Thin Lady Inside

I’m just stopping by but not staying

Hello everybody! I know “my cold weather” seems like something to laugh about when you live in places that get below zero temperatures…. I remember being in Wisconsin and laughing when people said it was cold at 40 degrees… this morning we were at 24 degrees… but … I am telling you… it’s cold for Texas! Again, my friend and I went for our morning walk and we were, again, the only ones out! She said “we are crazy” and she’s right… I like this craziness though!

On a sad, sad note… today I stepped on the scale and went from being overweight to obese! I gained +0.7 pounds and that took me “there” … I had already made “eye contact” with obesity recently (the Wii Fit makes it very clear that you understand “YOU ARE OBESE” when you weigh yourself) but I actually thought “eye contact” would be it… it turns out I stopped by and I am now totally in “obesity territory” … I hope it knows I am “here” just for a brief visit!

Today I was hoping the numbers had actually gone down a bit more… that was not the case… quite the opposite… but at least I am already doing stuff about it… it is still a bummer! I hadn’t been in the “obese range” for about a year and a half! -sigh-

My calorie intake for today is a total of 1396 calories… I exercised and stayed active all day long… so I am quite proud!

The Thin Lady Inside

Kings Day and a cold front

Hello everybody! I am hun-gry! Soooo hungry! I am craving all kinds of stuff… so as I type I am waiting for my cup of coffee to be ready and I’ll be toasting some low calorie bread that I’ll have with some Reduced Sugar Jelly on top! 🙂 YUM!

Anyway… Today was my first official day to exercise… and I say “first” just because it’s the first day of the year that I actually went out for my usual morning walk with my friend… who… finally came back last night! I sooo missed her! And I was excited when she confirmed we would walk this morning… but then… I must admit that when I heard last night about the “cold front” that would hit us and how the temperatures would drop I was tempted to back out of it! But you all… yes… you all kept me encouraged! Your comments, the posts I’ve read of those of you who run when it’s icy cold and who have even fallen on the ice… well.. all of those things were on my mind and I realized I had no excuse! Even when hubby made it all worse by saying “you probably shouldn’t go! It will be too cold!” Still… I bravely got out… it was 28 degrees which is a lot for Texas! Thankfully it was not humid! I must say it feels way worse when it’s 38 and humid than 28 and dry! I was all bundled up and met my friend at “our usual place” we were happy to see each other again! I thought I would see more people walking… you know? with the whole “New Year Resolutions” thing? But no… I guess in days like this is when you separate those that are really determined from those who aren’t… because seriously…. NO EXCUSES! Now… I am not judging those who stayed in bed… or saying that they will not be able to do it “tomorrow” or some other day… I’ve been “there” so many times… I’ve been the one to stay in bed rather than exercise …well… too many times (and not too long ago!) but I feel like “rough days” and “hard moments” are a great opportunity that shouldn’t be wasted… they are amazing will power boosters, when you don’t go out and exercise on a day like this just because you didn’t feel like it (I’m not talking about serious stuff, but … more like “it was too cold” stuff) you lose the chance to prove to yourself how strong you are, how important this really is, how serious you are about it… and you also miss the great “after the fact” feeling of accomplishment and pride… hey… I am saying all this to myself… remember? I am just writing my journey yes… to share with others but more importantly to have these memories STAY somewhere so I can go back to moments like this and use it as reminders when my strength is lacking! (maybe tomorrow… because it will be even colder!)

{{{ YUM, Coffee and toast with jelly are ready! I’m enjoying and feeling much better now! }}}

So… today is also “Kings Day” .. in Mexico we celebrate this day with a “Rosca” (King Cake) … This traditional bread is not that good… sorry! At least I am not a big fan of it. LOL! It looks interesting but it’s not “a big deal” not too sweet, not savory, it’s some very simple pastry… decorated with some candied fruit and the “big deal” about this cake is that it traditionally carries “little plastic babies” inside… (about 5, depending on the size of the cake), usually many people gather, from different families… or at work (I remember eating it at work with peers, etc.) and whoever gets the first baby is in charge of making “tamales” for a party to celebrate Candlemass on February 2. This is mostly a “Roman Catholic” tradition… which I am not… but in Mexico more than celebrating it as a “Catholic Religious Thing” it has become more of a cultural thing where people get together, eat bread and organize yet another party to keep eating! LOL! So… the first person to get a baby is in charge of the tamales, whoever else gets “babies” has to cooperate to organize the party, in the end everybody just “pitches in” … it is fun!

So… in Mexico (especially Central and South areas of Mexico) children receive gifts today on January 6th … and it’s the “Three Kings” who bring the gifts for the children (not Santa Claus) … my girls… are spoiled.. and get to have gifts on Christmas (because of my gringo) and they will be receiving gifts later today (it was supposed to be in the morning but since it’s not an official Holiday and daddy had to leave early for work, we’ll be doing it tonight). We’ll have a family over (my friend that I run with and her family) for some hot cocoa/coffee/King Cake and we’ll enjoy the King Cake… Well… they will…. I will pass.

Usually, most people buy a big rosca already made… I actually get to have fun making my own… I made two (if there’s leftover hubby will get to share at work!)… Today is also the last day to have any Christmas decorations… and I am looking forward to removing the “left-overs” 🙂

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I didn’t include the “plastic babies” to avoid any choking hazard.

Happy Kings Day!

The Thin Lady Inside

Ice Cream Makes me hot

Hello everybody… well, here I am…. taking steps on my road to recovery… I feel like an addict that fell again and I am starting to count my days of renewed sobriety! It is hard though… I hate how quick the body gets used to “eating more/eating junk” Yesterday I still ate more calories than I had planned … I was just incredibly hungry all day… but at least I never gave in to the temptation of just “eat it all” but actually held myself together and would just try to kill the cravings with something healthy… I love the combination of fruit, strawberry yogurt, craisins and nuts… so I had that as “dessert” at the end of the day…

Today I weighed myself and it turns out that I weigh even more… so… let’s talk numbers even when I have refused to… I have to face it … I am now 186.5 pounds …. it feels horrible to see/say that number when I had already reached 172.3 pounds … but I am not going to “dwell in the past” or in the “could’ve, would’ve, should’ve-s” and I’ll just continue to move on towards my goal. My goal for this month is to lose 10 pounds… we’ll see how that goes.

Something that is making it easier for me to go back to the good “path” is the fact that I am having trouble sleeping at night… the extra weight and having been eating so many high calorie foods makes me very uncomfortable and … hot! It’s like I am experiencing hot flashes! It is horrible… I find myself covering with a thin blanket in the night and keeping the fan (actually 2 fans) on at night because I get incredibly hot… and then I uncover myself completely because I am hot like a furnace… Then I fall asleep and get cold again so I cover myself and it turns out that just from the movement of covering myself I feel like this rush of flames from hell invade me from head to toes and I am burning again… This has been going on for about the last month… and I know it’s the weight increase and all the calories I’ve been eating that I don’t need! My last super high calorie food was 2 nights ago, when hubby, the girls and I went out for ice cream… we went to “Cold Stone” and I had a big thing of Dark Chocolate/Cheesecake Ice cream with toasted almonds! That night was near to impossible for me to sleep! So… my sleep deprivation and constant being “hot” while my family complains that the apartment is too cold and hubby would love to move out to another room because he can’t stand my fans at night… all that combined is definitely motivating me to go back to eating better/less and exercise again.

Today… will be another good day… an even better day than yesterday as I continue to bring my calorie intake down to the 1250-1400 range.

Before I stop writing though I would like to show off the cake I made for my littlest one… she turned 3 on December 29th and I made an “all strawberry” cake for her… no flavorings, no jell-o… all the strawberry flavor both in the cake and frosting came from real strawberries 🙂 it’s my first strawberry cake and she loved it! (unfortunately I loved it too and I ate all the leftover cream cheese/strawberry frosting by the spoonful)

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The Thin Lady Inside