Let’s run

After my gain weight of the holidays (if you remember I gained a total of 16 pounds like it was nothing!) I hadn’t been able to run… I started walking, walking, walking again…Today I started to introduce “running” for short periods of time during my walk! It felt good! It was hard because it’s been so long… and my heart rate got high real quick (my recovery time was good though) but I want to get back to running and being able to do it without feeling like I am going to pass out… I know I’ll get there!

I’ve been doing really good keeping my calories down… although I’ve been eating more bread than I should… I started to see a very slow weight loss and got out of obesity one more time and I am in the overweight range again… unfortunately last night I succumbed to temptation and ate meatloaf (thankfully made with extra lean turkey) and mac and cheese (which was just unholy! it was loaded with whole cheddar cheese and lots of butter) I shouldn’t have done that and I’m paying for it… I had “hot flashes” again all night long … it’s definitely high calorie food that makes me go through that, I had my doubts but I confirmed it… and it’s SOOO not enjoyable that it is for sure going to help me stay away from foods like that!

Well… anyway…. I’m proud of my progress and happy I’m regaining motivation and excitement about all this!

The Thin Lady Inside

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And then some more…

Hello friends! I read all of your comments to my previous post… thank you for supporting me on my highs and lows! You all rock!

So…. talking about highs (*rolling eyes*) turns out that when I weighed myself on Friday and was all bummed out (and wrote the previous post) I was tempted to eat a big thing of pasta with meat sauce I made… I decided I didn’t care anymore and then, when I served all that food on a plate… I realized it was stupid, crazy and senseless! So… if I gain one pound I am going to eat myself into oblivion just to make me gain more, feel horrible and get even further from my goal? NO!  I put the food away and ate none of it… felt awesome! Proud and happy for my decision! I went to bed pretty hungry I must say! LOL and then in the morning ran to the scale to weigh myself like if my “good action” could “magically” give me the results I expected and “miraculously” I would get the “reward” from it… So… imagine my “surprise” when I see the scale go up even HIGHER! I gained another 1.1 pounds… I blinked repeatedly like if I could make it all go away… like if somehow I could change things by blinking! When I stopped I actually laughed and carried on… didn’t let it bum me too much and it really helped that I went to church to focus on greater (and less carnal) things… At least this body is not eternal! 🙂 My spirit is… and lately I have been too concerned with what I eat or not eat… so much that I have been neglecting my spiritual feeding! I know that part of my obesity might be due to the stress I went through with my dad accompanied by the great amounts of food I ate while going through it… (horrible combination) and I know that I still have to watch what I eat, etc… but I need to quit letting it consume me because this “mindset” and emotional state will not help my weight loss efforts.

So… after church I went out for lunch and did great… I felt actually like some “weight” was lifted off of me… I came home, took a long nap and enjoyed the evening with my family afterwards… Today I weighed almost a pound less… and I laughed again… who cares? I keep doing this… I keep forgetting this is my lifestyle and there’s nothing that can bum me out enough to quit it!

Today I’ve been doing great and got out of my pj’s early! I was actually PUTTING ON my pj’s everyday after I showered! it was like my “outfit of choice” … I am making myself get into my jeans and look a bit better…

So… here I am … Thank you all for commenting!

The Thin Lady Inside

Feeling lighter …. is it my imagination?

Hello everybody! So… today is a great day! I am feeling lighter and I’ve been sleeping better… I am definitely not going through “hot flashes” at night anymore… I knew it was the high calorie diet I had during the holidays that was making me feel like “I was on fire” … I’m back to normal with my body temperature and even whatever stomach issue caused by overeating or eating junk I get is gone! Since my gallbladder was removed I really shouldn’t eat much flours/greasy stuff or spicy… when I do I give myself “IBS” kind of symptoms… I am telling you … IT IS BAD! Even makes me wonder “why in the world I do that to myself” and then I ask for another soda! LOL! … But… now that I am back to my healthy eating/exercising… all of those symptoms are gone and I am better! Plus… walking with my friend every morning is a TRUE blessing! we talk, cry, laugh and hug all in one hour! I mean… we mean business… we are walking really briskly and if/when I run I am still focused on my heart rate, etc… but… we truly take advantage of that hour and get all of our stuff out there! LOL! It’s like therapy!

Today… after our walk… I truly felt “lighter” I came home so excited, actually looking forward to see the number on the scale… but it didn’t move… I am still the same weight I was a week ago (when I started to watch what I eat) … and as you know… I even gained weight “in between” these days… but… I am just happy I am feeling lighter and I don’t think it is my imagination… my jeans feel better too… of course I haven’t washed them yet (LOL) but I put them on just to go to the grocery store (next door) and they did feel different (not only “I’ve worn them many times already” different, but … different) So… I am excited and looking forward to continue moving in the right direction.

The Thin Lady Inside

I can’t wash my jeans!

Well, here I am… My “New Year Resolution” of not spending so much time on the computer is going great… I think I am even getting uninterested! I never thought I would say that! I am having fun staying busy with my girlies!

So… today… I said good-bye to obesity (again) … as I said… it was just a brief, very brief visit (thankfully) … I am still standing at the very door of obesity’s home though… I lost only about 7 ounces… so… I even joked around with hubby after he excitedly congratulated me for being “overweight” again… and I said: “oh yeah? well… look at me get back to being obese” -and chugged down a cup of water- LOL! … yes… a cup of water or eating an apple could put me back to obesity in a blink! because 7 ounces it’s not that much… but it’s progress!

Even when I am not “obese” anymore (according to WiiFit) I still can’t wash my jeans! I mean… if I wash them… I won’t be able to get in them… I need them nice and loosened for a few more days… they still get super tight on the waist… and I get a beautiful looking muffin top! -oy-

Anyway… Just wanted to report that it’s all going well here… exercising and counting calories … Today my calorie intake was about 1400 so I am very proud!

That’s it for now…

The Thin Lady Inside

I’m just stopping by but not staying

Hello everybody! I know “my cold weather” seems like something to laugh about when you live in places that get below zero temperatures…. I remember being in Wisconsin and laughing when people said it was cold at 40 degrees… this morning we were at 24 degrees… but … I am telling you… it’s cold for Texas! Again, my friend and I went for our morning walk and we were, again, the only ones out! She said “we are crazy” and she’s right… I like this craziness though!

On a sad, sad note… today I stepped on the scale and went from being overweight to obese! I gained +0.7 pounds and that took me “there” … I had already made “eye contact” with obesity recently (the Wii Fit makes it very clear that you understand “YOU ARE OBESE” when you weigh yourself) but I actually thought “eye contact” would be it… it turns out I stopped by and I am now totally in “obesity territory” … I hope it knows I am “here” just for a brief visit!

Today I was hoping the numbers had actually gone down a bit more… that was not the case… quite the opposite… but at least I am already doing stuff about it… it is still a bummer! I hadn’t been in the “obese range” for about a year and a half! -sigh-

My calorie intake for today is a total of 1396 calories… I exercised and stayed active all day long… so I am quite proud!

The Thin Lady Inside

Kings Day and a cold front

Hello everybody! I am hun-gry! Soooo hungry! I am craving all kinds of stuff… so as I type I am waiting for my cup of coffee to be ready and I’ll be toasting some low calorie bread that I’ll have with some Reduced Sugar Jelly on top! 🙂 YUM!

Anyway… Today was my first official day to exercise… and I say “first” just because it’s the first day of the year that I actually went out for my usual morning walk with my friend… who… finally came back last night! I sooo missed her! And I was excited when she confirmed we would walk this morning… but then… I must admit that when I heard last night about the “cold front” that would hit us and how the temperatures would drop I was tempted to back out of it! But you all… yes… you all kept me encouraged! Your comments, the posts I’ve read of those of you who run when it’s icy cold and who have even fallen on the ice… well.. all of those things were on my mind and I realized I had no excuse! Even when hubby made it all worse by saying “you probably shouldn’t go! It will be too cold!” Still… I bravely got out… it was 28 degrees which is a lot for Texas! Thankfully it was not humid! I must say it feels way worse when it’s 38 and humid than 28 and dry! I was all bundled up and met my friend at “our usual place” we were happy to see each other again! I thought I would see more people walking… you know? with the whole “New Year Resolutions” thing? But no… I guess in days like this is when you separate those that are really determined from those who aren’t… because seriously…. NO EXCUSES! Now… I am not judging those who stayed in bed… or saying that they will not be able to do it “tomorrow” or some other day… I’ve been “there” so many times… I’ve been the one to stay in bed rather than exercise …well… too many times (and not too long ago!) but I feel like “rough days” and “hard moments” are a great opportunity that shouldn’t be wasted… they are amazing will power boosters, when you don’t go out and exercise on a day like this just because you didn’t feel like it (I’m not talking about serious stuff, but … more like “it was too cold” stuff) you lose the chance to prove to yourself how strong you are, how important this really is, how serious you are about it… and you also miss the great “after the fact” feeling of accomplishment and pride… hey… I am saying all this to myself… remember? I am just writing my journey yes… to share with others but more importantly to have these memories STAY somewhere so I can go back to moments like this and use it as reminders when my strength is lacking! (maybe tomorrow… because it will be even colder!)

{{{ YUM, Coffee and toast with jelly are ready! I’m enjoying and feeling much better now! }}}

So… today is also “Kings Day” .. in Mexico we celebrate this day with a “Rosca” (King Cake) … This traditional bread is not that good… sorry! At least I am not a big fan of it. LOL! It looks interesting but it’s not “a big deal” not too sweet, not savory, it’s some very simple pastry… decorated with some candied fruit and the “big deal” about this cake is that it traditionally carries “little plastic babies” inside… (about 5, depending on the size of the cake), usually many people gather, from different families… or at work (I remember eating it at work with peers, etc.) and whoever gets the first baby is in charge of making “tamales” for a party to celebrate Candlemass on February 2. This is mostly a “Roman Catholic” tradition… which I am not… but in Mexico more than celebrating it as a “Catholic Religious Thing” it has become more of a cultural thing where people get together, eat bread and organize yet another party to keep eating! LOL! So… the first person to get a baby is in charge of the tamales, whoever else gets “babies” has to cooperate to organize the party, in the end everybody just “pitches in” … it is fun!

So… in Mexico (especially Central and South areas of Mexico) children receive gifts today on January 6th … and it’s the “Three Kings” who bring the gifts for the children (not Santa Claus) … my girls… are spoiled.. and get to have gifts on Christmas (because of my gringo) and they will be receiving gifts later today (it was supposed to be in the morning but since it’s not an official Holiday and daddy had to leave early for work, we’ll be doing it tonight). We’ll have a family over (my friend that I run with and her family) for some hot cocoa/coffee/King Cake and we’ll enjoy the King Cake… Well… they will…. I will pass.

Usually, most people buy a big rosca already made… I actually get to have fun making my own… I made two (if there’s leftover hubby will get to share at work!)… Today is also the last day to have any Christmas decorations… and I am looking forward to removing the “left-overs” 🙂

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I didn’t include the “plastic babies” to avoid any choking hazard.

Happy Kings Day!

The Thin Lady Inside

Here and Now…

This eating healthy again is a “here and now” kind of thing.. Of course I have a set mind and a goal and I am planning ahead to EAT HEALTHY but at the same time I have to resist temptations as they happen and make decisions… HERE and NOW …

Yesterday… I didn’t bake anything for hubby… even when he called me to tell me that he had had some issues at work… he knows that whenever there’s something “wrong” I immediately bake something… and it did cross my mind but I didn’t know if I would be strong enough to bake and not eat… when he came home and didn’t see a dessert he was disappointed… didn’t complain… I guess he was just a bit shocked… so I whipped some chocolate-chocolate chip cookies … and when they were out of the oven he attacked them and ooo’d and aaaa’d over them … How is one supposed to resist that? Well… I guess by resisting it… period… Just say NO … here and now! That’s the hardest thing… but once you’ve done it you feel better! And that’s what I did… the temptation was there… the thoughts of “it’s just one cookie” and “I can burn it off” and “I’ve done pretty well today anyway” did cross my mind… but I shooed those thoughts away and had my cup of coffee without cookies and immediately felt stronger and proud! Rather than enjoy chocolate flavor in my mind for less than a minute loaded with guilt, despair and thoughts of failure… I enjoyed a clean mouth with lots of pride and a boost for my will power.

I am not saying each temptation will become a victory… I am just saying that IT CAN! and it did… at least for last night… and as I continue with my day today… I have that victory in my bag… and the memory of “how good it feels to be strong” to help me make my next tough choice!

Yesterday I managed to keep my calories at 1500 … after my “who knows how many thousands” calorie days I’d say I did pretty good… I’ll continue to work towards bringing that number to “my number” where I lose weight… My scale already showed a .4 pound loss … and I know it will keep going down!

The Thin/Strong Lady Inside