I never give up…

Hello peeps, if there’s anybody still around… or if anybody stops by and realizes that there was a long, long time since I last posted and that my last few posts were all about my struggle to find out the reasons why I didn’t seem to be able to lose weight… Just in case anybody wondered what happened to the lady who was looking for the thin-lady-inside of her… I am still here… I just want you to know that no matter what… no matter the struggles… I just DON’T GIVE UP! That’s right! … And while my weight kept slowly (and sometimes not so slowly) but surely creeping up… I never quit my battle against obesity… and while I did reach the 200’s again I didn’t gain all my weight back….

My last resort has been to invest in an expensive gym membership (which included 5 sessions with a fitness trainer and some blood work)

The blood work said what I already knew… Everything looks amazing in paper! They can tell I eat healthy and I exercise because the glucose is spot on, ideal numbers for triglycerides, HDL cholesterol, LDL cholesterol, blood pressure EVERYTHING! … They did a cardio test and they also were able to prove that I wasn’t lying when I said I exercise every day! They got me on the elliptical and it did nothing! High resistance and incline and I was feeling like I was sitting on a couch! My hear rate was so stable and not spiking… I could talk through the whole test… it was… GREAT! The trainer said: Wow, you really are strong… and I even told him when everything was done: “Sorry, I just have to ask… am I the healthiest fat person you’ve ever helped?” I could tell he was afraid to answer … Poor guy! but he finally said: “I am going to have to say yes to that!” LOL… So he started explaining to me that my body had just simply adapted to EVERYTHING I DO… Yes… everything! Including the 10 mile walks, the eating healthy, everything! And when the discouragement came and I did eat out of my normal, healthy stuff… of course I saw even an increase… and that was doing it! So what am I doing now?

  1. Weight Lifting… I had never tried that and the trainer highly recommended it (plus I’ve always had the goal of looking somewhat like a bodybuilder… I know… it might seem crazy… but I really reach for that!)
  2. Switching things around more both with the food and the exercise… in regards to food I am sticking to strictly healthy stuff, avoiding grains but not excluding them, continuing to live a “sugar free lifestyle”, and sticking to what I already used to do of no artificial junk and stuff like that… BUT now I am just making sure that I am not always “eating the same” everyday… adding more fish to my diet and like my trainer said: “When things stop working, change things up a bit”
  3. I am not focusing on the scale…. After 2 weeks of all the training and sticking to my healthy food… I felt stronger yet the scale said I had lost only 2 pounds (what!? I am still walking 10 miles, plus 1 hour of cardio and 1 hour of weights! How can that be?) well… looking deeper into it… and with the right equipment… ALL THE OTHER NUMBERS told a more encouraging story… I had lost 7.5 pounds of fat during those 2 weeks… yet gained 4.5 pounds of lean mass… AMAZING! Had I not known those details I know I would’ve let the 2 pounds be very discouraging! All that work for NOTHING??? BUT …. Now I know I have to REALLY trust other things more than the number on the scale… How do I feel? Am I getting stronger? How do the clothes feel? Etc… and I can’t let the scale ruin all those other tangible victories!
  4. Resting… With this I am still struggling… I have to trust what the trainer said about letting my body rest… I get this weird anxiety if I relax… I feel like I can’t sit or not train for a day because I will get huge… like… on that day! and this takes me to the next point…
  5. Training my mind as well… I am learning a lot about neuroplasticity… which is basically how our thinking affects our brains and our bodies… it might sound like it’s not something serious but being healthy involves our minds too… I have to change the way I think about myself… and even quit the negative thoughts that tell me “I’ll never get to accomplish something” and learn to relax, enjoy and not obsess.

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So … there you see me in the blurry picture above… I have those bands in my legs, I walk sideways with those and it is a great strength exercise for my legs (hips and thighs I think) … I am having a lot of fun and loving seeing results in my body… Hopefully my experience encourages you! I never quit… I just don’t… Find what works for you! I hope I can give you a great update soon!

The Thin Lady Inside

It is happening!

Hello everybody! How are you doing? I am thrilled to announce that struggling and all I’ve lost 10 pounds since I went and visited that horrible Natural Health Center in April…. I remember that as “the date” because it was a very low point in my journey… you can read about it here … If you’ve been following my blog then you know I started at 222.8  pounds (2 and a half years ago)… reached172.8 (50 pounds less) after a few months and then I didn’t seem to be able to go any lower… then it turns out I gained a lot of weight for what seems hormones/stress issues (December 2013) and then in April this year I found out I was 194 pounds!! horrible! I gained 22 pounds back! but Friday I weighed myself and even when I haven’t seen my weight go “dramatically down” I saw the number and it was 184 and that’s when it actually hit me! Yes… I am still heavier than what I had already reached… BUT… I HAVE LOST 10 POUNDS in about 5-6 weeks which is pretty good!!! Yes I’ve struggled but I am just happy to see some changes! I continue to not weigh everyday and I am happy I am at peace with it but it for sure was a nice surprise to see that!

I continue to do great and I am back to running in the mornings (just not as early and just making sure I eat something -a snack- before I run) … It’s harder to run but my friend and I are doing it and we’re planning on doing another 5k in September… today we went for 3.45 miles but ran only 1.3 miles out of those… Feeling good though!

Saturday I walked/ran in the morning and then it was an active day picking blueberries with my family… it’s been quite active around here in the pool and doing fun activities like that… I am sure that also helps reduce any stress/cortisol levels and in consequence aids my weight loss! Yeah! WIN/WIN!

Have a great week everyone!

The Thin Lady Inside

Day 1 of many, many, many!

Hello everybody! Here I am … so … as you know (if you’ve read my previous posts) I decided to give the Fast Metabolism Diet by Haylie Pomroy a try! The Fast Metabolism Diet, as I probably already explained before, is a plan that consists of 3 phases that you have to repeat until you complete 28 days to heal your metabolism and in consequence reach your desired weight goal… of course if your metabolism is more damaged and/or have way more weight to lose then you just “rinse and repeat” pretty much… so you do the plan again for 28 more days and again and again if necessary…. So… having 28 days to go through was cool… you know? I like to set goals for myself, etc… But I guess I have other issues to deal with (like sabotaging myself and fear of success) … day 25 proved harder than I thought… being so close to day 28 added extra stress for me and it seemed (for some reason) unbearable! it was such a weird feeling “being so close” to the end of the 28 days made me feel so anxious and made it feel too far!!! Phase 2 is the hardest of the 3 phases and for me Phase 2 is always on Wednesdays and Thursdays … so … that Thursday I decided to just skip Phase 2 and move on to Phase 3 … So I pretty much didn’t finish strong, as Phases shouldn’t be skipped at all! I still lost 4 pounds on my 28 days which is not a lot by any sense of the imagination, especially on this plan where most people seem to just LITERALLY DROP the pounds right away! But for me is a huge accomplishment since the scale has been really mean to me for a long time no matter what I did… losing 4 pounds definitely means a lot and is a first step on the right direction… So… I decided to continue with the FMD until I reach my weight goals BUT this time I decided to forget about the “28 day” thing and just know that this is going to be a loooooong journey which I will only be able to go through ONE DAY AT A TIME…. So… I ripped my calendar and it feels good to not have a “set date” (for me) … I guess it’s all about finding out what works for yourself and having a specific date, for me, was too much pressure and added feelings of failure and disappointment to reach a date where I was supposed to lose up to 20 pounds and made my accomplishment look like “nothing”…

So… on other news and with a new found sense of accomplishment… I have decided to give myself some credit… Today I celebrate that “I am HERE!” 🙂 Many would’ve given up by now… and I’ve decided to celebrate the fact that I am not where I started 2 1/2 years ago! I’ve had bumps (big ones) on this road, I’ve shed pounds and I’ve shed tears (mostly tears than pounds) but I haven’t quit! I am still lighter than when I started… and still fighting…  I haven’t lost all hope and I know there’s no going back to “not caring” 🙂 I CARE! 😀

So… yes… 🙂 Lots to feel proud of 😀

The Thin Lady Inside

Phase 3 I LOVE YOU!

Hello everyone! So… I have followed the “Fast Metabolism Diet” (FMD for short) Program for 4 days now… which means I’ve gone through Phase 1 (2 days of high -and healthy- carbs and fruit sugars, moderate protein, low *or non existent* fat) …. Phase 2 (2days of boring, headache inducing plain, lean protein *not even egg yolks!!* and unlimited vegetables, but not any vegetables just the least satisfying ones, not even cauliflower!!, zero carbs, zero fat, zero sugars) and today… today begins Phase 3 where your efforts are rewarded (LOL) where you tell your body “what? you thought you couldn’t eat fat? that’s not true, here goes some fat! No need to store any! keep losing!” so on phase 3 you get to eat protein (some fattier protein too like salmon, skinless but delicious chicken thighs, you also eat healthy grains, some kinds of delicious fruit, seeds and nuts and vegetables, you’re very liberal with some satisfying vegetables like sweet potatoes, carrots, etc… and on top of all that… avocado! up to 3/4 of an entire avocado, coconut oil, nut butters, etc.) can you tell I am excited? Ah! Today I am happy! And just ecstatic that Phase 3 last longer than the other 2, you have 3 full days to nurture your body with healthy fats and just tell your system “it’s ok, it’s ok to let go!”. Each phase is essential for the program and 1 can’t exist without the others … keeps your metabolism confused and it’s important to do exercises that are “phase appropriate” … so I did cardio on phase 1, strength training on phase 2 and I will be doing some dry skin brushing today, focusing on un-stressing and hopefully I will get hubby to give me a good long massage.

I sure sound hopeful… I know… and it’s because I really am! I really hope “this is it” .. I know I will give it my all as usual! I will have to follow this plan of repeating cycles of phases 1,2 and 3 for 28 months and then… repeat as needed! 🙂

So… this morning (phase 3) I had -for breakfast-

– 2 whole eggs cooked in coconut oil and seasoned with sea salt and nutritional yeast.

– 3 slices of avocado

– 1 Ezekiel bread English muffin (half of it with almond butter the other half with coconut butter)

– 1 cup of blueberries

– 1 sauteed zucchini.

How do  I feel? Amazing! 🙂

The Thin Lady Inside

I am a sore loser!

Hello everyone! Here I am … first let me wish you all a “Happy Valentine’s Day” … I am still thinking about healthy treats I can make for hubby so we can enjoy them together… I ordered my 100%birch (USA made) Xylitol yesterday on amazon… (xylitol is a natural sweetener that is plan approved and does not affect your glycemic index, there are two kinds… corn based which is GMO and birch which is good and the one that we will be using) so… anyway… I ordered it and I will be getting it in about 5-8 days… so… obviously I can’t use it to bake… Stevia has too much of a weird (and very bitter) aftertaste for me especially when baking so … I can’t think of anything else to make! We’ll see.

So… yes… I am a sore loser… it turns out that yesterday I got back on my rowing machine… it had been abandoned for a long time and yesterday started back at it… I could only manage 5 minutes! (INCREDIBLE! ONLY 5! I was up to 1 hour before!) but at least I am doing it again… I am soooo sore from just 5 minutes of rowing! This morning I hesitantly weighed myself just because I am weighing every week… I lost 3.1 pounds! it is awesome! I am so excited about it! Thank God!!! I hope everything will continue to go in the right direction… as you know I have gained almost 20 pounds of the 50 I had originally lost… I was sad to have reached 190 pounds again… and today I am 187! It’s a lot but I am going down… so I am happy to be a loser! AGAIN! I can keep losing like this every week! LOL! 🙂

So that’s it… I just wanted to share that with you… have to go because my breakfast is waiting for me!

The Thin Lady Inside

Trim Healthy Mama-ing

Hello everybody! I have been following the “Trim Healthy Mama” method (except for one meal where I ate chili and fri-tos!) and it feels good… although my weight hasn’t budged I feel like I am doing something right!

I have incorporated to my diet:

Nutritional Yeast

Stevia Sweetener (drops)

Chia Seeds (amazing super-power food!)

Half&Half/Heavy Whipping Cream

Lots of berries

Lots of veggies

Ezekiel Bread (sprouted bread)

Extra Virgin Coconut Oil (I’ve always loved it! I am glad to be back!)

Butter (plenty of it)

Greek (unsweetened and plain) yogurt (I get to sweeten it with Stevia and enjoy it with my berries!)

(rarely) Dreamfields Pasta – Low Glycemic Index

Brown Rice -in moderation (I’ve always liked it but I used to have the white rice more often)

Not very recommended by the program but “acceptable” I’ve been eating here and there some low-carb mission tortillas (3 Net grams per tortilla)

I have removed from my diet

All forms of sugar (Cane Sugar, Honeys, sweetened Jams, Jellies)

Coffee Creamer (I used to have Sugar Free Vanilla Creamer)

Regular breads that are not sprouted.

Potatoes (I can have 1/2 a sweet potato here and there but never white ones)

White rice (I will miss you THE MOST)

Corn or Corn products

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I still need to get:

“glucommanan” (although it is optional I am totally convinced I should get it for what I’ve read online about its benefits)

konjac noodles (I MUST get these but they’re SOOO expensive! They have great shrinking properties, they’re like a form of pasta but 0 calories! yes … ZERO CALORIES! They’re made from the konjac root! I just know that it’s a noodle and it actually helps you lose weight! I WANT IT!!!)

almond flour (I already got Flaxseed Meal) … There are some bread recipes I am looking to trying where I will need those.

I bought whey protein (sweetened with stevia) but I haven’t tried it yet

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I must eat whole foods and not care about calories (although I do) … I’m extremely motivated by the success stories in the group (including my friend’s -Margi- look at her progress here) And I can’t wait to have my own success story as well!

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I had an initial “bad experience” on the very first day of following the plan… and it was with the Stevia Sweetener … DISGUSTING (was the first thought that crossed my mind) … then I tried to follow one of their recipes for “cake in a mug” and the results were… beautiful looking but really unpleasant.. I thought “everyone was crazy” to eat this stuff! … In the “support groups” on FB I was told to “give it some time” until “all the sugar left my body” and my taste buds would actually (and magically) change! I couldn’t believe it and I didn’t want to BELIEVE IT… I kept my unhealthy Vanilla creamer (which has no sugar) because I thought “Splenda” (I don’t love it… but I thought it’s better than Stevia) would be my only choice… after 5 days of ZERO sugar I gave Stevia another try on my coffee and … it was … PERFECT! Delicious! Now with half&half and stevia drops! Could this be possible??? I tried my vanilla flavored stuff… and it was… too fake! That’s interesting! So I am happy that I am drinking a healthier cup of coffee every night with hubby! I still haven’t given “cake in a mug” another try… maybe some day!

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I feel more freedom when eating… I must say… and I love it that I do get to eat enough carbs! This is not a “low carb diet” … I do have to keep an eye on not going crazy with carbs… but I can eat up to 45 grams in a meal if I want to – when eating higher amounts of carbs I truly have to keep the fats at bay… when eating higher amounts of fats then I HAVE TO keep carbs to a minimum, the limit would be 10 grams per meal- I look forward to seeing results! Hopefully soon 🙂

The Thin Lady Inside