I should write a country song or some sad, heart-felt blues….
“I’ve been trying to lose it… I’ve been working really hard
I’ve done everything I can … and I am still in the same place
I don’t know when it will go away… I am hungry and in pain
and this weight resists to leave me alone… I can’t take it anymore…” oooh! Ooooh!
(I hope it sounds the same in your head as it sounds in mine) It sounds pretty cool… lol! But it’s a sad, sad song… I am still struggling with my weight… As you know I started the thyroid hormone treatment about 3 weeks ago (right?) well… I saw some weight loss after a few days… and then … wham! I gained it all back and more… I had reached 177 pounds and I am back at 183… within TWO days I gained over 5 pounds… it was just PAINFUL to watch! And I can’t even say “my scale is lying” because even my husband came home from work one night and this is how our conversation went right when he saw me:
Hubby: “whoa! Are you ok???”
Me: “what? Why??!”
Hubby (now afraid to say something): “ummm… you ummm, I don’t know… are you swollen?”
(he knows I get an allergic reaction when I get in the pool and I swell and get all bloated and a horrible rash on the face… so I’ve stayed away from the pool! of course!)
Me: “not that I know” (hesitating and touching my face alarmed)
Hubby: (getting closer to me… inspecting me, inquisitively) oh, ok… mmm I think you look really bloated…
Me: (running to the mirror, and seeing me the same way I saw myself all day long) “ummm… I had just thought I was having a “fat day” but I guess it’s not just in my mind huh”
-sigh- … My shorts feel tighter around the waist, my face does look bigger, I am a mess!
I do have a rash from the last time I got in the pool but it’s on my elbows and legs, my skin is really sensitive so I can’t even shave myself right now (sorry! TMI!) so I feel like a horrible, bloated, hairy monster! -sigh- (sorry about the mental picture)
It’s incredible! I just scheduled another appt. with the doctor… I’ll have it today… that’s why I’ve been away from the blog again, nothing to report except weight gain… Right now I am trying to eat ONLY 1200 calories in the day… Today I had already burned over 1000 calories by 6:30 a.m. after bootcamp and a walk… I don’t know what else to do…
The Thin Lady Inside