Waiting for news… hopefully not bad!

I’ve been away lately.. mostly because I can’t even get myself to put my ideas in order… I actually try to avoid to think and when I have some time to myself instead of posting here I just watch TV or do something to keep my mind off of the things that could make me worry…
So… I am being tested for Lupus… I don’t even remember if I mentioned it here but every time I am in the sun I get a very weird rash on my face, neck, under my chin and even arms and legs… I feel like I am burning and even a little bit of exercise makes me itchier because of the ongoing rash! So… the doctor thinks it might be lupus (due to my RA History, etc.) so we are testing for that… and I’ve been already warned that the treatment is with steroids… and that steroids make you gain weight… -sigh-
I know that doesn’t HAVE TO result on me being obese again… but I can’t help but feel scared… feeling scared makes me feel out of control and I don’t like the feeling… Right now I am just waiting for the latest rash from the last sun exposure to recede so I can go again to the gym and run! This thing (whatever it is) is a bummer! I can’t go swimming with my girls… we wanted to go to South Padre Island for vacations… and I just CAN’T be in the sun… at all! Not even a little bit! Even with sunscreen I feel like I am burning and is just not good for me…

sorry this isn’t the inspirational, enthusiastic post you were probably expecting or hoping for… is not a depressed one either… I am just sharing what’s going on and letting you know that this weight thing… well.. my goals are still the same and I’ll continue to work towards attaining them… I will not let myself go! I am still going to be free… I am still fighting not only being overweight but the bad habits and sedentary life that led to that! Right now I gain a little and lose again… I am just basically staying in my weight but looking forward to running again and getting things going to keep losing!
Thank you for being here!

 

The Thin Lady Inside

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Facing my fears!

So… I always struggle to get up early in the morning… Having RA … well… even when there are no flare ups or no joint pain… I am usually tired… exhausted! but this morning… I fought the feeling… I don’t even know how I did it… I guess I was just determined! I had to do it earlier to “get it out of the way” I hadn’t exercised PROPERLY for about 2 weeks I think… and I wasn’t liking the feeling! I mean… my last “exercise” was August 11th and it was good but not INTENSE… at all… So I was even afraid I wouldn’t be able to run again! I was afraid of getting on the treadmill at the gym and finding out that I got all out of breath even by just walking… but I decided that even if that was the case it was better to “face it now” and get back at it instead of waiting longer and really having to work harder…

Well… I discovered I had nothing to be worried about… I ran three miles and walked for about 6 extra minutes… I did feel it took a little more effort but I was far from tired… I couldn’t stay in the gym longer because hubby had to leave for work… so I just exercised from 6:30 to 7:20 a.m. it was great! I am so happy I did this! I don’t know why when we are afraid of “facing something” we postpone it and then just make it even worse! Whatever it is… you know? There are things that we are going to have to do sooner or later… and we know deep down inside of us that if we do it NOW it’s at least going to be done and it won’t torment us in our minds any longer… but no… we decide to wait and prolong the agony… At least I know I do!

So I took this picture when I was almost done this morning:

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And to end my day on a high note… Look what was just outside my window a minute ago:

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Beautiful right? No matter how bad the storm… or how dark it all seems… there’s always some light … go outside and find it! This rainbow did 🙂

The Thin Lady Inside

Finding satisfying alternatives

I loooove sandwiches! I really do! And I’ve found them to be a great aid in my eating healthier lifestyle! … You can stack them up, make them big with veggies, some cheese and avocado, roasted veggies and different spreads on the bread… I just make sure I have “the right kind of bread” to keep the calories down!

Well… Sometimes I do feel like eating something that I can use a spoon or a fork to eat it! So I am trying to make sure I add variety to my diet so I don’t get bored or start making “bad choices” due to my craving of something soupy, hot or just different!

So… I found this awesome recipe (which I altered and I am happy I did) in the book I borrowed from a friend (I mentioned that on my previous post) and it is SOOOO GOOD! Again… the credit goes mostly to the people from “Cooking Light” but as I said… I did some tweaks and changes…

Very healthy, satisfying and yummy! (plus it’s freezable!) I just finished eating this for lunch!

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GARDEN MINESTRONE

Yield: 8 servings (serving size: 1 1/2 cups soup and 2 tablespoons cheese)
281 calories per serving

Ingredients

  • 2 teaspoons olive oil
  • 1 cup chopped onion
  • 1 teaspoon crushed dried oregano
  • 4 garlic cloves, minced
  • 6 cups chopped zucchini
  • 1 cup chopped carrot
  • 1 cup fresh corn kernels (about 2 ears)
  • 4 cups chopped tomato, divided
  • 3 (14-ounce) cans fat-free, less-sodium chicken broth, divided
  • 1/2 cup uncooked ditalini pasta (very short tube-shaped macaroni) – I just used small elbow pasta
  • 1 bunch of red chard leaves (about 4 cups coarsely chopped) -you can also use a 6 oz. pkg. of spinach-
  • 2 teaspoon salt (or to taste)
  • 1/2 teaspoon freshly ground black pepper
  • 1 cup (4 ounces) fresh Asiago cheese (shredded)
  • Coarsely ground black pepper (optional)

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Preparation

  1. Heat oil in a Dutch oven over medium-high heat. Add onion to pan; sauté 3 minutes or until softened. Add oregano and garlic; sauté 1 minute. Stir in carrot, and corn; sauté 4 minutes, add zucchini and sautee with the rest of the vegetables for 1 more minute. Remove from heat.
  2. Place 3 cups tomato and 1 can broth in a blender; process until smooth. Add tomato mixture to pan; return pan to heat. Stir in remaining 1 cup tomato and remaining 2 cans broth; bring mixture to a boil. Reduce heat, and simmer 20 minutes.
  3. Add pasta to pan; cook 10 minutes or until pasta is tender, stirring occasionally. Remove from heat. Stir in chopped chard leaves, salt, and 1/2 teaspoon pepper. Ladle soup into individual bowls; top with cheese. Garnish with coarsely ground black pepper, if desired.

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Southwestern Falafel with Avocado Spread

Hello friends! I’ve been doing good… well… kind of… I don’t know if you remember I mentioned I get a weird rash often… well… it seems it’s the sun that causes it… I got it again and I am going to get tested for Lupus… Hopefully that’s not it and it’s just some simple allergy… -sigh- So… since I’ve had it again I can’t get overheated… not even a little bit… so exercising becomes near to impossible… I’ve stayed very active though… more than usual… and making sure I stay in my calorie range! It’s been very good!
So, recently, a friend let me use one of her cooking books (she wanted me to find what to do with spaghetti squash but I haven’t even looked it up yet… -shame-) but I’ve found great recipes here! It’s one of those “Cooking Light” Annual Recipe Books and this one is from 2006! there are such great recipes here and it got me inspired! So once it was time to go grocery shopping (yesterday) I made sure I would add more different things to be able to make some of the recipes from the book… and this is the first thing I made from it (I just had it for dinner tonight)! It was delicious, very inexpensive and only 281 calories per serving! YUM!

Southwestern Falafel with Avocado Spread

Obviously the traditional falafel is made with chickpea patties in pita bread, well this is an American version (a Tex-Mex falafel I guess?) and it uses pinto bean patties that are enhanced with green onions, cilantro and cumin, these patties go in pita bread and a very easy guacamole spread.

Amount per serving

  • Calories: 281
  • Calories from fat: 30%
  • Fat: 9.5g
  • Saturated fat: 3.4g
  • Monounsaturated fat: 3.9g
  • Polyunsaturated fat: 1.5g
  • Protein: 12.2g
  • Carbohydrate: 37.4g
  • Fiber: 5.9g
  • Cholesterol: 13mg
  • Iron: 2.4mg
  • Sodium: 625mg
  • Calcium: 188mg

Patties:

  • 1 (15-ounce) can pinto beans, rinsed and drained
  • 1/2 cup (2 ounces) shredded Monterey Jack cheese
  • 1/4 cup finely crushed baked tortilla chips (about 3/4 ounce)
  • 2 tablespoons finely chopped green onions
  • 1 tablespoon finely chopped cilantro
  • 1/8 teaspoon ground cumin
  • 1 large egg white
  • 1 1/2 teaspoons canola oil

Spread:

  • 1/4 cup mashed peeled avocado
  • 2 tablespoons finely chopped plum tomato (you can use roma tomatoes too)
  • 1 tablespoon finely chopped red onion (or white if you don’t have red)
  • 2 tablespoons fat-free sour cream
  • 1 teaspoon fresh lime juice
  • 1/8 teaspoon salt
  • 2 (6-inch) pitas, each cut in half crosswise

Preparation

  1. To prepare patties, place pinto beans in a medium bowl; partially mash with a fork. Add Monterey Jack cheese and next 5 ingredients (through egg white); stir until well combined. Form into 4 (1/2-inch-thick) oval patties.
  2. Heat canola oil in a large nonstick skillet over medium-high heat. Add patties; cook 3 minutes on each side or until patties are browned and thoroughly heated.
  3. To prepare spread, while patties cook, combine the avocado, plum tomato, red onion, sour cream, lime juice, and salt. (I didn’t include the sour cream and added it separately on top of the patty/guacamole) Place 1 patty in each pita half. Spread about 2 tablespoons avocado spread over patty in each pita half.

Credit goes to: Krista Ackerbloom Montgomery & Ann Taylor Pittman, Cooking Light
AUGUST 2006

I hope you enjoy it! I think it’s a good change for the stuff we usually eat when “on a diet”

The Thin Lady Inside

Embrace the Feeling!

Yes… are you hungry? Embrace it! Are you tired? Embrace it! you are alive! You are working hard! Do not give up! It’s worth it!

Last night… I had already eaten everything I needed and had to have for the day… plus my sugar free chocolate pudding and coffee at night… and still felt hungry! I was tempted to give in and just go ahead and eat… but I realized I had had ENOUGH for the day… and decided to exercise some self control! I don’t eat little… even when I am trying to lose weight… I make big plates of food! For breakfast I have a big plate with tons of sauteed vegetables and 1 egg, plus some cheese and bread, for lunch I have a very good big sandwich that includes avocado and some roasted zucchini on the side, for dinner I try to make it lighter (especially if I indulge with carbs during the day and yesterday I ate too much rice for lunch) but I do eat! and yesterday… knowing how much rice I had had (and that I even had a thin slice of chocolate cake) I knew… it wasn’t appropriate for me to eat anything else… I need to teach my body also… to not be “stuffed” I need to learn to eat to live not the other way around… So… I decided to “embrace the feeling” of rumbling in my stomach… I have to embrace the feeling of being tired after working out too! It’s all part of what I am doing and makes me feel alive and with power over this! In the very moment I feel a little desperate but later, when I succeeded and look back it makes it all worth it and makes me feel I can do this!

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Exercise is IT!

Good morning! New day! New mercies… right? in Mexico we say “borron y cuenta nueva” which means something like “let’s erase it all and start a new tab” LOL! So… whatever happened, happened, right? Right now… I am very excited… I’ve never lost the will to lose weight… I’ve never gotten that goal out of my mind… I just for some reason went through a rough patch… and even some self-sabotage that I am still trying to figure out why! WHY!?? every time I would start successfully losing some more weight I would eat..like I HAD TO… I would eat compulsively, nervously, weird!!! some therapist in the house? LOL!

I was also lazy with the exercise and I think that’s what made it easier to eat… when you don’t work hard to burn calories and you have those numbers right on your face after sweating for an hour and realizing how hard it is to burn the calories it is easier (at least for me) to eat more without caring much for the calories… I know it sounds ridiculous and it should probably be the opposite… where if you are not exercising you would be more self-aware of the fact that you can’t indulge! but… it’s not my case!

Anyway… Yesterday I exercised and did very good with my eating… I don’t care about the scale right now… I can’t say I’ll weigh myself or not.. because I am not even interested… I know my last weigh-in (on Wednesday) I was 179 so I have still managed to stay in the same weight… it’s a good thing I haven’t really gained but it’s a bad thing I am still at the same place when I should be much lighter right now… but it doesn’t even make sense to focus on that… so… I will not commit to weighing or not weighing but to exercising… because that really keeps me focused and helps me watch what I eat closely!

The Thin Lady Inside

Forcing myself!

Ok… here I am… making myself do what I have to do… and I know that I need my blog… it’s such a great tool for me to face my weaknesses and overcome them… to avoid making excuses and lying to myself and to get encouragement from others who are where I am, who have been there or who simply care about the things I say…

Thanks shadowrun, healthylife and my friend Tiff for such great support! Thanks to Dave also just for reading and the encouragement I get from you too! Thanks also to everyone who likes, rates and follows this blog! I appreciate it like can’t imagine! It really means a lot!

Today was a better day… Yesterday instead of running I took a nap… I know… BAD! and today I didn’t work out but I had no moment to even sit around… I worked hard in the kitchen fighting with a cake I was making… (not eating… just making) and my eating was very good

Tomorrow it will be better… I have great things planned and I’ll continue to come here and share with all of you… whoever you are… 🙂 Thanks for being here!

The Thin Lady Inside