Not exactly bittersweet because bittersweet means that the same thing is bitter and sweet at the same time… And that’s not my case… It’s just that yesterday I had some bitter moments when cloth shopping… it turns out that I am officially size 12 for pants and I thought I would be size 12 for dresses but that’s not the case… my prominent stomach kept the dresses from fitting! and I felt very discouraged! Trying to hide from the mirror all over again… My littlest one was crying so I decided we should stop the shopping and ended up only getting a pair of shorts… yes… size 12… which is great… but still have no clothes to wear and it felt horrible to see that if I want to wear a dress it would have to still be a size 14/16 if I want to get in it only to have it not fit right because the area for the armpits and around the legs is too big! I am not that big anymore… but my stomach still is… so everything looks just WEIRD -sigh- hubby asked me where I wanted to go after that store and I just said “Cold Stone Creamery” I was half joking/half serious… the truth is that I did want to go running for ice cream… but of course I wouldn’t do it! I’ve come too far to ruin it all because a dress won’t fit! Especially realizing that those dresses won’t fit after I’ve lost… and here comes the sweet part of it all… I’ve lost…
Yes… today I am exactly 40 pounds lighter than when I started on Jan 9th this year! It’s been exactly 10 pounds each month! And it feels awesome… the goal still seems very very far away but I know I’ll reach it! I am almost halfway there and I am just super excited!!!
So… I don’t care if those dresses don’t fit just yet… I feel great and I am still a “work in process”
The Thin Lady Inside