Well… yesterday was a very good day…. you know? I felt in control (most of the time) with the things I ate and everything…. then hubby came from work (later than usual) and with a horrible cold… I thought I wouldn’t be able to go to the gym again, he didn’t look like he could watch the girls for an hour but even when he didn’t feel like it he did! So I was very thankful for his support and off to the gym I went! It was hard! After two days of not exercising because of the girl being sick, late work, etc… I just felt so TIRED! I wanted to just QUIT every single step of the way!!! I was soo tempted to just get off the treadmill! And I even tried to get “good excuses” in my mind like “You should be home taking care of your husband… poor guy” and then I just realized I was just lying to myself and trying to “escape” my workout! I realized 1 hour wouldn’t kill him and he said he would be fine! I knew I wanted to really jump off the treadmill because I didn’t want to keep moving my legs! So I even increased the speed a little more! There you go fat! for trying to stop me! Take this! and between huff and puff I finished the hour and burned a total of 765 calories! I ended all shaky, sweaty and with my heart jumping out of my chest but it felt GOOOOOOOOOOOD!!! Because I WON! I wish my mind and body would cooperate! LOL! But I know this war will be won battle by battle, step by step and if I quit when it gets a little hard then I’ll never really GET THERE! I’ll stay in this BIG prison for good!
So I must say I felt pretty accomplished and proud of myself and today it was a very rewarding time on the scale:
Yesterday’s weight: 204.0 Today’s weight: 203.2
WOOOHOOO!!! Every step and every minute on the treadmill last night were totally worth it!
The Thin Lady Inside